Tired

my midnight epiphany.

TIRED

I’m tired of being someone I’m not

I’m tired of being labeled and not earning my reputation

I’m tired of wanting so much and accomplishing so little

I’m tired of my sucky job

I’m tired of doing things I don’t want to do

I’m tired of my complacent life

I’m tired of being everyone’s friend but not have one friend

I want crazy

I want a to look at my way of life and feel proud and accomplished, not feel like there’s room for much more improvement that will never happen

I'm TIRED of being STRONG

I want to lean on someone and let them be strong for me

I'm tired of consoling myself

I want someone to comfort me, lie to me and tell me everything is alright

I'm tired of being someone past great acquaintance

I want to be someone’s past, present, and future

Why can’t I have those things?

Why do I have to see life pass me by without a backward glance?

What’s wrong with me?

What do they have that I can never have?

I abide the rules, I am a fairly good person, I believe in God, and I work for my things.

Why are others less than me, having more than me?

When will the inequality dissipate?

 

But through all my inner monologue, I eventually realize that me wanting and longing will not change a thing.

Life is what it is. I just need to remind myself these words:

The Lord is my Shepard, of whom shall I fear
The Lord is my strength, I shall not faint

His light will guide me through my deepest fears

 

So even if my life isn’t what I would like it to be, I still know that my path in life may not be the greatest but then again it’s not the worst. 

Instead of looking down at what I don’t have, I should look up at the beauty of what I do have. 

Author's Note

if this inspired you feel free to tell me, i would like to know.

Reviews

[78Jon]

It sounds like you need some rest. Some rest from life. Good poem though.