Charles Manson was always a good influence

Checking the milk cartoon to see if someone is looking

for my former self

but instead the darkness that's spilling under my ten dollar IKEA blinds

eventually finds it's way into my bed

and I wonder if it's me

Inhale. Exhale. Repeat.

When I was little I used to think it was the natural way to calm down,

but now it cigarettes are consuming my innocence

with each inhale I take; the smoke is over-flooding China

If I chose a personality and stick with it

maybe I wouldn't have such a hard time consuming everyone else's.

Sometimes I freeze and wonder where I went

if somewhere my 10-year-old self is dancing with my grandparents somewhere

but then I realize that my grandparents are dead

so maybe that wasn't such a good visualization.

Teenager-hood - Universe;

impressionable, pro-mistakes, experimental

rivers of self-pity and attention, 

but most of all

the will to fit in and try to find yourself

The cigarette ashes fall just as fast as my tears

maybe someday i'll be strong enough to collect my fears

but right now my Peter Jackson Lite Kingsize pack is calling my name. 

Author's Note

If you connect the title with the poem; you're doing well in life.

Reviews

[Victoria PoetryBunny]

I like how different and down to earth this feels like from the milk carton in the beginning to the "Inhale. Exhale. Repeat." then that third stanza, forth and then ending. Nice write.

[Nobody.]

Love it! Just about knocked my teeth down my throat.
Cheers!

[Dayran]

What appears like a dysfunctional mind now may at another time be experienced as genius that no one else understands. It prepares itself. Nice write!

[light and ashes]

Love this, I felt it very deeply.

[CHRIS ANDES]

truly madly deeply wonderful...

[Coyote Poetry]

I like this kind of poetry. Free thoughts and took reader to many place. I had to read a few times for pleasure. Life can make us crazy. My mind wander away and I must regroup and begin again.
"Teenager-hood - Universe;
impressionable, pro-mistakes, experimental
rivers of self-pity and attention,
but most of all
the will to fit in and try to find yourself"
No weakness in this amazing poem.
Coyote

[Kenneth The Poet]

Crazy stuff for sure. I like it.

[Jazique]

Wow..nice...interesting... like the style you used to write this. Well done it was a unique poem.

[Larry Dyson]

SURREAL AND OFf THE WALL..GREAT USE OF MIXED METAPHORS AND ODD ANALOGYS..

[Lily Mae]

Interesting.. I love your style..x