Not good enough

Is there something wrong with me?
An uncureable virus that swims among me,
A virus that decides who wants me,
And who doesn't.

Was it something I said?
A foolish sentence, maybe?
A suggestion of our future?
All these questions are left with no answers,
But I'm afraid the answers will leave me in heartbreak.

Is she prettier than me?
Does she say all the right things, and you laugh?
Does she make your heart swoon with love,
Like you used to feel with me?


I'm on my knees, my wants getting the better of me.
But is it to the point where you are more than a want,
And much more like a need?

Can I say anything that will make you mine?
Maybe change myself to make you happier.
I need you. I want you. You are my pleasure.

The shadows linger at the tips of my smile,
Slowly disappearing into an unfound place,
Will this be the last time youe scent will fill my.nostrils?
Will this be the last time you'll call me sweet names?


Will this be the last time you'll ever love me?

Author's Note

Inspired by a situation I'm going through right now. Thank you for reading, there is tons of emotional upset behind this poem; so thank you for reading.

Reviews

[Sweet Emotions]

This is such a painful place to be. I hope it gets better for you soon. As for the poem, I like how you used questions a lot.

[johnnyqueer]

I have so been in this position before, you described the situation perfectly. Although it is lacking rage, haha. My take on this situation ended in anger, and jealousy. I'm excited to read more of your work :)

[Brad]

this one bites to the very core of not only it's author but you involve the reader as well. very few can invoke an emotional response through writing, but you've mastered it here and sorry you are going through this

[Marie Harrison]

Very emotional poem
What to express yourself

[DreyaArt]

I am so sorry that you are going through something such as this, and trust me, you are good enough. Probably too good for who ever is making you go through this. Remember that unfortunatly it gets worse before it gets better. But it does get better, who ever you love, do not be ashamed of that love, but know that perhaps that person does not deserve the amount of love you have within you.
You are a shining star in the dark night sky, dont ever forget that :)
Have an amazing day!

[Jackson Lai]

Love it...