Unraveling

      I really don't know what you
         expect me to say.

 Every time we go down that road,
          it's like you repeat yourself
                 over and over,
      thinking I'll say something different.


        What do you want from me?!

              Do you expect me to just
                   screw my spirituality,
                   screw my friends,
                   screw God,
                   screw my family,
                   screw myself,
                 just to be with you?


    Trying to lift you up to my
   standards only dragged me down

              And now I'm facing
                    hellfire
           because of my mistake.


                  I don't even know why.

                  We were never in love.


    Maybe we both so badly wanted to be
            we began to believe we were.

        We began stitching our hearts
                      together
            in hopes
                   it would last.

  And now unraveling our words
        and memories,
                thread
                             by
                                     thread,

             hurts worse than I could have
                    ever imagined


       I don't know how you could ask me
          to sew it back up.

               I know I'd have to undo it
                      all over again.

      And I couldn't bear
               the pain of unraveling
                                again.

Author's Note

it feels good to write again.

Reviews

[Marlena]

I loved this. The emotion and the pain is so strong in this! Also, I love the format you chose to do this in. Nifty work ^_^

[Georgia Gypsy]

I am sooo touched by the emotions in this piece.....hit to the core of my world right now is the line 'unraveling our words and memories, thread by thread, hurts worse than i could have ever imagined'

that line hit my soul, ton of bricks.

Great poem.(though like looking through a mirror darkly at my own life)