The EstuaryA Story by CrowleyA little Coarse, but hey, so is life. It
was a dead baby. Decomposed, chewed up and badly bloated, but not beyond
recognition. It was a baby, no doubt about it.
Vincent turned and vomited in the sand, dousing his tackle box and one of his
flip flops in the process. His chartreuse Lefty’s Deceiver was firmly hooked in
the left eye socket, the lifeless swollen body surged and retreated with the
incoming tide, looking more like twisted piece of time and tide blackened
driftwood than a human body.
Vincent came to this estuary once a year with a friend. Mexico was therapy for
his constantly work warped mind and body, his only real escape from the
pressures of family and life in general. When he was fly fishing, that’s
when the rest of the world retreated. The bigger picture would form and he
could see God, the “It”, the ultimate and unknowable truth, whatever you wanted
to call it. When he was here, he could see his existence in the context of the
beginning of time. It wasn’t some fruity tooty spiritual bullshit to him, it
didn’t need to be. He didn’t need convincing or someone to tell him what it was
that he experienced, he knew full well what it was and he drank from that life
spring for five solid days once a year and it invigorated.
This year, Vincent was on his own, his usual fishing partner Kevin had broken
his collar bone pulling a box down from a high shelf in his own garage. It
didn’t bother Vincent to be alone except for the fact that it was always safer
to travel in Mexico in pairs or groups. Not that he had any problems in
the past, but traveling by one’s self always presented a certain amount of risk
that didn’t seem to exist when traveling with a companion. That low level
anxiety that courses through your veins when you are in a foreign land is
magnified when you’re alone, sometimes your actions and decisions are affected
and you end up doing things that you would never do when you have your back up
with you.
He sat his fly rod down and stared at the dead baby. He was trembling. As the
relentless tide pushed and pulled, Vincent panicked and more than a bit
unnerved was having a hard time getting control of his thoughts. As he
stood and stared, a small crab scuttled in and started to claw at the toes of
the infant. Instinctively he lurched forward and splashed in the water,
startling the crab back into the estuary flow. He started to become dizzy and
kneeled in the sand, a fresh wave of vomit finding its way up and out. He tried
to steady himself, his body light, an almost audible buzz in his ears and his
head. He didn’t know what to do. The usually firm and manageable voices in his
head, a cacophony of white noise and internal alarms. He had to pull that
damned hook out. That was the first thing. It glistened in the baby’s eye
fluttering with the tide making it appear that the baby was alive and the
eyeball moving and following his every move. It flashed as it flopped to
and fro in the water, giving the scene a surreal quality. Although he knew
better, he kept waiting for the eye to open and fix on him, waited for a wet
and gurgling wail from the baby’s mouth, waited for it to become a scene
straight out of a horror movie.
He had arrived at the estuary at four that afternoon, timing his arrival with
the start of the incoming tide. The best fishing was usually from about
two hours before high tide to two hours after high tide. The bait fish, crabs
and other sea critters would arrive on the sea swell and as always, the bigger
fish were never far behind. When he had finished rigging up and had first
stepped into the water he took a moment to survey his surroundings. He
came to the estuary because there was rarely another living soul within several
miles and the peace and serenity offered by the sound of the ocean and the
expansive views were enough to make anyone fall into a relaxed and restful
state almost immediately. That day didn’t disappoint. He had made only three
casts before he had hooked a two pound Pompano, a lively fight and a beautiful
fish, its silver dollar sides flashing wildly beneath the water. In a
little over two hours, the tide was at its peak, the sun was starting to lower
on the horizon and he had caught and released nearly two dozen fish and a four
pound skate, a rarity when fly fishing these waters. He took a break and sat in
the sand and had couple of beers and a half of a ham sandwich, enjoying the
cries of the Turns and the occasional break of a fish or the dorsal of a
dolphin in the distance. Not wanting to wait much longer, he got back up
to fish before the sun completely started to set. On the third cast he thought
he had snagged his line, another rarity at the estuary because of the smooth
sandy bottom. As he tried to work the snag free, he could see his line
floating with the current of the outgoing tide and realized that he had hooked
something….something big. He began to haul in his line as gently as he
could, what was on the other end was heavy but not really fighting as a fish
would. When he was finally able to see the end of his line, he could see
the black form and figured he had hooked a large piece of plastic. But as he
pulled the dark mass closer he started to see the outline. What looked like two
tiny arms and one small leg protruded from his catch. He had caught a doll, a
kids toy, probably something that had fallen in the water on a family boat trip
or had gotten left too close to the water as high tide approached. But
when he finally beached it, he reached to turn it over and his thumb and
forefinger sunk two inches into the fleshy hide of the dead infant. He recoiled
in horror and pulled his arm back just as the tide rolled the body over
allowing him to see what he had actually caught.
He stood back up and tried to gather himself for the task of removing the
hook. His legs were far from stable, but he managed. He grabbed the
fly rod and dragged the body back up on to the sand, out of the water. He
reached into his gear bag and pulled a small silver and leather flask, Crown
Royal. The shaking of his hands made pulling the stopper from the flask
difficult, trying several times before finding purchase. He took a large pull,
the normal whiskey cringe that shot through his body when he took a shot
conspicuously absent this time. The hot dry liquid instead filled his throat
and stomach and flushed an almost soothing warmth throughout his body. He
took a second pull and replaced the cork.
The sun was now a blazing half crescent, one of hundreds of mesmerizing sunsets
he had witnessed here over the years. He kneeled at the side of the body,
barely noticing the broken clam shell that stabbed at the flesh of his
knee. He wiped his hands on his pants took in a deep breath and reached
for the hook. To his surprise, the hook was loosely attached making him
wonder how he was able to drag the weight of the body through the surf without
losing it in the first place. A voice inside his head, a calmer, more
rational voice spoke to him.
Would have been better if the hook would
have fallen out sporto.
He agreed with the voice on the surface, but he was a firm believer that all
things happened for a reason and though the easier way out, the deed was done
and going back in time is a fool’s thought.
We should be having a beer and chile
relleno in town by now sporto, push it back in.
The voice was a familiar one, it always took on the quality and tone of his
childhood friend Kirk McAllister. Kirk was a bad seed. He wasn’t
made that way, he was just born that way. It’s not like Kirk could have ever
been any other way, for him it was genetic just like it was for his mother and
his Mothers father. A good portion of the trouble Vincent had ever gotten into
was at the urging of Kirk McAlister’s voice. It had a low quality, almost
a shadowy whisper and Vincent intuitively knew that when that voice was
speaking to him, it was better not to listen. Ain’t
nobody saw you Vince, just push it back, let the ocean take care of it
just like it would have before your superior fishing skills fucked you.
A chill ran up Vincent’s spine. He immediately jumped up and looked
around, the daylight had faded into almost dark and he hadn’t even
noticed. Had anyone seen him? The white noise returned, Kirks voice gone,
replaced by a brigade of wailing high pitched voices. What was he going to do
now. He began to pace the beach, as he saw it he had three choices. Take
Kirks advice and return the baby to the water. Chances were that no one
had seen him and no one would ever know. But in his belly he knew that was
wrong and what if someone had seen him? He looked around again. The
Estuary was remote, only one house sat on the beach one hundred yards from
where he stood. But in all the years he had been fishing the estuary, he
had never seen anyone at the house. If someone did see him, then he would be an
accessory or some s**t like that, it’s not like they needed a lot of reason to
lock up Americans in Mexico.
Another choice was to drive back to town and get the police. But it was
an hour and a half away and at the rate the baby was decaying and with the
numerous kinds of wild life that lived at the estuary, there was a chance it
wouldn’t be there when he got back and then what. They would think he was as
crazy as a shithouse rat. He could bury it until he got back….no, that
was just creepy and he was sure that if there was an investigation, as the
person that turned attention to the situation, he would be the first suspect ,
once again, he was a foreigner and the story of catching a dead baby while
fishing was sounding ludicrous even to him.
His third choice was to take the baby to the police and tell them that he found
it on the beach and hope to God that they believed him.
He sat down in the sand, pulled his flask and drank again. He stared in the
direction of the body, a black lump on the sand as darkness was becoming
complete. He rocked back and forth, anxiety filling him and causing his
stomach to cramp. He drank until the whiskey was gone. The anxiety was
still there but dulled significantly and he started to wonder how the baby had
died. He laid on his back in the sand and wondered if it was a boy or a
girl and if as a baby, it had slept through the night or kept its parents up as
babies often do. He wondered if its parents had loved it.
Vincent drifted into sleep on the sand and dreamed of fishing the
estuary. As he casted, small children would jump out of the water at his
fly and he would scream at them to leave it alone, that it was for the
fish. They would laugh and try to take the fly anyway and Vincent would
cry.
Vincent awoke to an already blazing sun and the brush of a hand across his
face. Startled, he sat bolt upright to see a young Mexican woman wearing a long
black skirt and a brightly colored sleeveless top. Wrapped tightly in her
arms was the body of the baby. The horror came flooding back and he began to
breathe in gasps and tried to get up, looking around to see if anyone else was
there.
“Don’t worry senor, Its just me,” she said softly in a heavy Spanish accent.
She stood up and started to walk away.
“What about the baby,” Vincent asked trying to stand and follow.
“ This is not your burden senor and thank you.” She kept walking.
“What Happened to your baby," he said almost shouting as she put distance
between them walking slowly down the beach near the water.
“She was a good girl,” the woman said. “Her name is Gabby.”
“That’s beautiful,” he screamed after her and collapsed back to the sand and
wept. The ocean air felt especially cleansing that morning and Mother
Ocean rolled on as if nothing had ever happened. But it did, it surely
did.
© 2011 Crowley © 2015 CrowleyAuthor's Note
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