Maria

This is a short story about Maria's first try, second try in confessing to the boy she likes and her first heart ache. This story was made for a radio drama but I thought it wasn't good enough.

I fell in love with someone who can never be mine, he was the top of my class, kind yet sometimes he throws off an intimidating aura. He sometimes looked like he had enough of this mundane life and I know his looking for an adventure. His light brown hair sparkles against the light, his dark blue eyes is like the sky that hides millions of secrets. 

But I was the exact opposite of him; I was the top two from the bottom of the class, the class idiot and I don’t have any dream in my life.

But on a faithful day, the day I saw him cried under the rain I was tempted to approach him and wanted to comfort him but I can never find the chance. Because there was already someone beside him, comforting and making him smile.

I decided that I will not lose to Hana. Hana had always been the bright and bubbly girl with long brown curly hair and big happy light brown eyes. She had always been rank second best of the class. Hana is the best partner for Greg but I won’t go down with a confessing my feelings for Greg.

I decided to leave him a love letter in his shoe box. So I waited early in the morning the next day just to see his reaction from my letter. I stood behind a post when I saw him approach his shoe box. But he did not even notice my letter. How come? I picked the most neon colored envelope I can find and almost emptied my perfume bottle just to keep the envelope smelling good. With the color and smell it seemed impossible for Greg to miss my letter.

After he left with Hana, I sadly walked towards his shoe box and peeked inside. But there was no letter in there. My love letter, someone stole my love letter. It was a letter filled with my untold feelings for him, how I admire him, and if he can just smile for me just once.

I spent the whole morning moping and secretly crying inside, well setting aside the crying part I am also feeling quite scared that someone might have read my letter. My first plan failed. But I will never give up, so I guess it’s time for plan B. I laughed and stopped when I noticed Greg staring at me.

I smiled. “What?” I stammered my question out of my mouth.

“Nothing, I just found you very entertaining and a very happy person.” Greg said before he sat on his chair. I squealed silently and smiled like it was the best day ever even if my love letter plan failed.

“He said ‘I’m very entertaining and very happy person.” I said, repeating his words over and over again while I’m washing my hands in the lavatory.

I smiled again and looked myself in the mirror. I am pretty but not as pretty like Hana, but still going head on with someone like Hana is like looking for a fight with a ferocious dragon.

I sighed and decided to plan on how I’m going to make my plan B worked. I decided that the roof top was the best place where I can keep my head clear. The roof top was the only placed where other students are not allowed to wander off. But being as a semi-delinquent I can go anywhere I want in this school.

It was a peaceful morning, classes have already begun and I decided to play truant just to beat my previous record. Yeah, it was peaceful but my plan failed in capital letters. I sighed as I remembered how someone stole my letter. If I can just find the person who stole my letter they better start praying to the god that they believe in.

I started laughing evilly, when I saw someone staring at me while leaning against the railings. My heart stopped it was not Greg but it was Hana. She was smiling at me and went to where I have stood. I was smiling at her like a fool not knowing what I should say to her.

“What have you been doing here, Maria?” Hana asked me. I laughed weakly not knowing what I should answer her.

“I just want to find some place to clear my mind from all of my problems today.” I decided to tell her. Then an idea came over me, I should ask her what if Greg likes chocolates or not.

“What kind of problems do you have right now?” she asked again. I have to close my eyes before I get irritated with her questions.

“Hana, can I ask you something do you think boys will like home-made chocolates or not?” I asked staring straight at her. I don’t care what she thinks about me but with the information I can get today plan 2 will finally be a success.

“Maria, every boy likes home-made stuff from girls. It’s a simple way of girls on showing how much they idolize a boy. Do you like someone, Maria?” she asked smiling so sweetly.

“Yeah, I guess I can try it.” I said with a smile on my face before going back down to the classroom without even answering her questions.

But I still did not know it at that time; the demon just smiled at me in the darkness assuring her victory.

After classes, I hastily rushed to the bookstore and bought the home-made chocolate for dummies book and some tools and chocolates and nice wrappers and boxes. I spent the whole weekend making the best home-made chocolate I can ever make within my abilities of course.

On Sunday night while tying a cute pink ribbon over the box, I received a text message from Hana. It said something like you should leave a note that said from ‘your secret admirer’. Why not just give it to him directly and confessed to him, I thought. The love letter did not work and doing it secretly means I have a big chance of failing once more.

Let’s try the secret admirer before doing it up front. I slept that night not knowing that the demon has already finished planning on her next move against me.

‘Greg belongs to me, no one can snatch him away from Me.’ the demon said repeatedly.

I woke up early that morning, went to school earlier than the others and put my box of chocolate in his book locker inside the classroom and then went out and decided to stroll around the park pretending that I’m still on my way to school.

But time is ticking on, and my chance of confessing is slowly fading away. Classes begun and I can’t get the courage to look where Greg’s desk is, I don’t want to see his calm face looking like he did not see anything nor did he find anything that worth his time. I decided to look at him during our History class and what I saw caught my breath. He looked flushed and he kept shaking his head like there is something that he doesn’t want to believe in something. I smiled my plan succeeded he got my chocolates.

I decided that I would confess to him after classes but just after the bell rang Greg stood up and run out of our classroom. My heart sank seeing him run like that but after a few minutes I received a text message.

The text message said come at Akihabara’s Next Maid Café at exactly six in the evening I have something to tell you, Greg. I smiled as wide as I can. I never found the chance to get his number but all this time he has mine. I grabbed my bag put my stuff in it messily and run as fast as I could just to get in time for the next train to Akihabara.

During that train ride, all I can think about is Greg’s smiling face, and how he will say “I like you too.” I can’t stop looking at my watch when the train finally stops at the station. I pushed people aside and started to run again. I did not stop running even if I bumped into someone along the way. I turn right this is the lane where maid cafes and butler cafes all line up. I tried to calm my heart I am in the Akihabara district a district where in otakus, cosplayers, maids and butlers all come together. In short a district for the eccentrics.

It was not the bright and lively district that caught my eye but it was the people who stood fifty meters away from me. Greg and Hana stood side by side holding hands and looked like they are having the best time of their lives. Hana smiled and waved at me.  The two of them went to where I am standing transfixed.

“Hey, Maria.” Greg said happily.

“What are you guys doing here t-t-together?” I asked trying my best not to let them hear my voice breaking. And I stared at Hana’s ribbon so hard so that my tears will not betray me. I can’t jump to conclusions right now; maybe they just saw each other coincidentally here. Then why are they holding hands?  A voice inside my head asked me.

“Oh, this; Hana made me some chocolates and left it in my locker and when I found it Hana had been standing behind me and gave me this letter and confessed on how much she likes me.” Greg said sheepishly. Hana forced Greg to take out what he was talking about.

If my eyes can fall out of their sockets then they did fall off. He took out a purple box tied with a pink ribbon. My box, my ribbon are on his hands and he took out a bright neon envelop and blushed furiously.

“But that’s�"that’s my le--”I got cut off by Hana, while she smiled wickedly.

“Ne~ can you buy us something to drink?” she asked and Greg nodded and searched for the nearest vending machine that can be found.

“What do you think you’re doing, Hana?!” I asked angrily grabbing her shoulders. My tears have betrayed me and it’s falling as fast as tears could fall.

“Heh, did you really think I’m going to give him to you.” Hana said snippily while prying my hold on her. “You think you can get him with your pathetic ways? How thick can you be?” she shouted now it was her holding my shoulders. I can feel her strength. I wanted to shout but I can’t.

“You gave me advices and suggestions. I thought you were my friend.” I said shakily, while shaking my head furiously.

“You think?! I gave you the chocolate idea just to ensure my victory on having him on my palms. You were the perfect pawn. You do everything you see on animes and on mangas. How pathetic can you be? Leaving a love letter�"how cheap�"so I decided to use your efforts to make him mine. I know he likes me so why not use your feelings to have him.”

I gasped she pushed me and I hit the road. She knelt beside me if people are looking they would think she was just going to help me up.

“You can never make him happy. You are a trash nothing more. I’ll take care of him for you, so don’t worry I’ll take good care of him until I get tired of using him. And when I do get tired of him that’s the time you can have him. Wait for the time his going to become trash too.” She whispered and she pulled me up and smiled. I shook; I know Greg stood at my back.

“Honey, let’s go back first Maria has to go somewhere else. And it’s starting to rain.” Hana said in her sweetest voice and left me all alone in the busy streets of Akihabara as the rain starts to fall.

It was falling so hard, there is nothing I can do but to stand in the middle of the busy street and cry where no one will notice. I fell into my knees and cried while trying not to wail in my despair. I was happy that I have met Greg, I learned to try my best just for him to notice me. But because I have fallen for him all I can do is just to continue to cry under the rain. And let Hana have her way, she; no the demon has utterly defeated me.

 

Author's Note

hey, i know this is not perfect and has some grammatical error but enjoy reading it anyway.