Ugly

 Don’t say one single word, don’t dare to stare at me now, don’t come closer to me and say you there, when you really not. I hate the though of you wanting me to smile, laugh, be myself back, when nothing is all right. I hate all of you for not understanding me or comforting me when I need to feel safe and warm back into your arms.  Just don’t pretend to care, don’t make me hope or cry, don’t say you want to hear my feelings or what’s in my mind, I just want you to promise me we will work this out. But I’m always wrong, I’m always the one to blame, you always say I never tried or ever gave. I hope and dream, I wished upon and pray for everything to be just ok. I gave it all and really put effort and more to do everything you once said and what I recall, and yes I always fall, but my heart just can’t seem to give up on hope. So please listen to my voice because I just can’t bare to take it anymore. I think I’m ugly in everyway and form; I want to run away from you and from it all. It seems I’m always alone, there’s no one by my side, nobody wants to love me and take me for what’s left behind. You think you always right; your pride is worth million times more than my life, you just think you better than anyone and you deserve a prize. But I’m tired of your victory and all you ever did and said, the cold in you is patronizing, suffocating me just when I’m weak or dead, but just remember this and my last words, I can always get better, become a little bit wiser and strong, I rather be imperfect and capable of loving than being an arrogant f**k like you and your pathetic world, you will always be alone, the day you lose it all, you will realize what you let go, and so I walk away with satisfaction, after all I was always better than you will ever known. 

Author's Note

i'm open to all types of critics, honesty is the best!