Lies to Self.

Your smile is intoxicating,

And with every word through that screen,

My heart starts aching,

Why do you do this to me?

 

The curse was over with that last goodbye,

But I guess that wasnt the end for you,

Your words are text in my biography,

Im the play on words you produced.

 

You went far away,

Without a small goodbye,

Make the smiles go away,

My pillows sewn with dismay,

Your not my man, your my sin,

Ill dial 911 but the doctors never in.

 

Drink  your beer and smile away,

Ill give you the check that you cant pay,

Red hair at night,

Tattoos that sparkle in my sight,

Your fingers should be a gun,

All because of you,

Im killing myself with my own fun.

 

Your fingers prod my cheeks,

Trying to smile back at me,

But theres no smile left to make,

You made everything fake.

 

Your polaroid is still on my wall,

A phone is left on perminant call,

No one is going to put up with your s**t like me,

No one you kiss will see what I see.

 

I want to be next to you,

But your bubble wont burst,

I wanted to cry to you,

But my love is my only curse.

 

Eventually Ill leave,

And there will be no goodbyes,

Someday Ill go away,

Ill move on with my life.

 

 

Reviews

[ChrissySpiff]

The last stanza is powerful. This whole poem is full of emotion and I love how you convey it all.

A few lines I completely feel the same way about someone so special to me. I liked seeing someone else being able to feel such connection with someone else, even if things are going so badly, it's like those connections, those realisations between you two still exist or at least they weren't a lie, even if they pale into insignificance right now.

The ending is so sad, but then again everything dies, and everything becomes sad eventually. There are no happy endings with anything anymore. I like this poem. The last stanza really is so relevant to my own situation, as are the lines

"no one is going to put up with your s**t like me,
no one you kiss will see what I see."

That makes me feel sad when I read that. Thank you for sharing.

[funeralmoon]

this was wonderful.. i see where your coming from.. f**k that guy. hes a b***h who doesnt deserve u :)

[alan khan]

really great ending to a emotionally strong piece. great work.