Bowl of Noodles

just a little something i wrote a while ago

I grip the blade as I run from the ferocious, snarling dogs. They were gaining on me.  I ran at my greatest speed. Could not run any faster. I felt a spark go up my spine and made a dash forward, faster than before. I noticed a turn and made it quickly, releasing a door, trapping me inside. The feeling of freedom made me calm. Safe at last. Then suddenly a man with a dragon scaled demon sword that was glowing green steps out of a corner and sliced my side while I stumble and roll on the ground. The slice subtracting half of my health. I slide to his back side and wedge Hestia, my jet black knife, into his back. Everything falls silent.

Taking Hestia out of the man's back and watching him collapse, muttering to myself ”Finally lost those damn wolf creatures. thank god for the focus leveling system”Ii start to feel a presence behind me. Right as I turn around I see the demon blade swing and cut open my chest. My attempt to block the next attack did nothing, The force from the swing shot me into the wall. He says some words in elvish and stabs me through the heart.

Everything turns red. than black. I have died.

“S**t!” I shout and throw the controller to the ground. I slowly stand up and walk over to the bathroom. It is messy, but in a nice, neat way. I turn and stare at myself in the mirror. I am a mess. Bags under my eyes only emphasize my lack of sleep. I start to brush my dirty hair and question whether or not my disgusting hair was an achievement or just another result of my own shameful habits.

Peaking out of the door i notice something moving towards me. It moves shakely like a child that just learned how to walk. The odor emanating off of it is something you would find while digging in a taco bell garbage that is also shared with a Jack in the Box. The closer he got, the stronger the booze was. “Crisco, are you serious. Have you been drinking all day?”While yelling, I threw the towel at his face and watch him stumble like godzilla after a plane flew into leg.

He steadies himself and thinks of how to respond ”Nooooo” of course he sounds like a five year old who was confronted about doing something bad. While shaking my head in disappointment, I grab my coat and walk out. Slamming the door behind me.

The sun's glare was blinding, so blinding that sunglasses wouldn't be able to help. The sounds of the city had overtaken any other sound. I put in my headphones and start walking. Bury all your secrets in my skin. Cars flash by me like lightning. Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins. Everyone is happily walking by. I tuck my hands in my pocket after putting a hood over my head. The air around me still feels like a cage. People smile, they laugh,  have fun. And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again. I sit down on the side of the curb and pull out a cigarette. I watch the match blow up with fire when I slide it across the side of the box. Lighting and taking a drag from it i only think of her.”Caitlyn”.

Her hazel eyes sparkled against the sun's rays as she smiled and laughed at my stupid, not funny jokes. She was gorgeous. She is gone. She will be happier. Thoughts of her flood my head like an enemy army, deadly and definitely unwanted. I take another drag to let the smoke fill my mind and let me breathe out all of those thoughts.

The sight of Crisco sprinting, more like fast walking but to him it's all the same, toward me breaks my thoughts in half. Leave it to Crisco to ruin everything.

“I’m...I’m glad I caught up!” The liquor in his breath is so strong that I'm starting to feel light headed. I give him a look that states my emotion at the time, hurry up and get on with it. He hands me a paper and my head instantly drops.” Oh yeah… I almost forgot” Crisco plops down next me me and bury’s his head in his hands” You don’t have to just do it. you can attempt…” I zone him out in anger. I can feel it overtaking my depression and sadness.” Like my grandfather always said, life is a box…” I shout,” Shut up Crisco!”

Crisco looks at me in awe. For some reason his stupid expression made me feel like I was in the wrong. To be honest i probably was.” Hey Crisco listen, I...I am so sorry for snapping like that. It was…”

“It’s okay” He sighs.” Really uncalled for” I still try to cure the injury I caused Crisco. Damnit! This always happens. My thoughts buzz around my head like fruit flies in spring. Whats wrong with me. Crisco stands up and starts to walk unlike before. There is sadness in every step.”Don't… mention it man”

I sit there on the curb for what feels like an eternity. I can’t think. At this point, I'm not even sure if i’m breathing. it's just a sleeping city.

Pulling out the pack of cigarettes i notice it's instant lightness. It drops to the ground and echoes through the now empty street. Turns out I have been sitting here for hours. Standing up I notice change next to me. “Those b******s must have thought i was homeless” I chuckle and say to myself. The night club across the street is raving out. The constant thumping makes me think dinosaurs are breaking out of Jurassic Park again.

When I start walking away my mind turns on again. Before death you tend to replay your life. Assuming for me that i would replay the bad moments. I replayed her. I replayed the first time we met, I had been visiting my buddy, Marsh, over in Florida. Knowing my hatred for Disney, he made me go to Disney World.

Marsh rode rides. Marsh played games. Marsh ate food. Marsh flirted with girls. Marsh got numbers. Marsh disappeared. I sat in the background. I stayed out of his way. I was alone. After a while of just standing there, waiting for him, I started walking. I walked around the world, seeing all the foreign humans happy that they are alive. It made me feel way too envious of them. I hated it.

When I walked pass China, I noticed something was up. It looked intriguing so I figured might as well check it out. I walked over to a bench and watched as a man dressed as that one prince danced around. The kids ran around in circles and had so much fun, it was actually starting to make me smile. When I snapped out of it I something next to me.

My heart skipped a beat. It felt like it was trying to jump out of my chest and into hers. Her smile was adorable. Her hair flowed perfectly down her back. Her posture was amazing with those long, sexy legs. She was perfect.

“Do you have problems with that?”Her voice wrapped the package together. There’s not a way to describe her voice besides perfect.”Hello, do you have problem?” Besides her broken english but she’ll get better. Wait! S**t! Has she been talking?

“I guess i go” She starts to stand up. I become nervous and I grab her wrist while yelling ”No don't go!” She was shocked and possibly frightened that this creepy american ignored her then gripped her wrist right after yelling at her.

She strangely sat back down. She started eating some kind of noodle and it looked amazing.”Take” she handed me a small bowl with a little bit of noodles in it and some scallions with a drizzle of broth. Her dark eyes were like staring into the galaxy from above. I grab the bowl ” Th-thanks love” I say with nervousness. I started eating. It was amazing. It was better than the best thing anyone has ever done.

We sat in a silence for a while. While I ate, my eyes would wander over to the beautiful girl next to me. Her hair was gorgeous. She just stared at me smiling.

“Good...it's good” I say nervously and nod as if I am agreeing with myself in a conversation. She grabbed the bowl from my hand and set it inside a container. I watched her do so. I realised a while ago how creepy I am being but at this point she is so beautiful i can't look away.

I got lost in her eyes. Her beautiful asian eyes. She stood up and smiled ”Time to work, I go now.” I jump when i hear the word go and stand up quickly ”Is...umm...is there a way i can possibly see you again?” She brings her hands up to form a nine with her fingers “This time?” I nod and give her the thumbs up. While watching her gorgeous hair bounce of her perfectly curved back as she walked away.

The feeling running through my body was alien. I was not sure what to think. The tap on my shoulders broke the questions circling my mind.

When I turned around I saw Marsh´s stupid grin and could tell he was dying to brag “Guess what i got!” He commanded. I shrugged because it could be a many thing. “I got us grass and a*s” He holds up a bag of very sented dope and a picture of two girls.

“While you got yourself grass and a*s, I actually talked to someone” the fact that I am proud about being able to talk to someone is not the best. Marsh instantly changed his posture into more of a shocked one. “No s**t, how’d you mess it up” he gave me a grin that made me want to punch him.

“I didn’t screw anything up, a*****e, I met a girl and we are going out tonight.” His face transforms into a pout and he whines ”Grass and a*s.” After hearing enough of this, start to walk faster until he holds the dope in my face again. “Put that damn thing away, we are in public!” I swat the bag away then he yells “fine, let the pubic smoke too! No harm there!” He stood there and watched me tread on. I turn, walk backwards, and shout “I’ll see you at the apartment!” You could see the aggravation on his as he mumbled something to himself.

I was happy. It was a giddy feeling that ran up and down my spine. The smile on my face made me feel like I was loved by everyone. I hopped around while walking around the hoards of people that were going in all directions. I was excited for the night ahead.

I snap back into the present. At this moment my depression had sunk over me completely. Why do we as humans wrap our minds around pass problems and allow them to affect current affairs I will never know. At that moment my head turned and I saw it barreling towards me and collide with me. The last thing I saw aside from the train was my paper fall and hit the ground.

Now I live in neither heaven nor hell. I watch humans live life. I watch them have fun. I watch them love. I watch her. I watch my daughter grow. I watch with my love. Finally we are together at last. My dearest Caitlyn.