Falling graciously

Tides
An ebb and flow
A mind lapsing
A heart yearning
An empass
Peering through a needles eye
A sharp and narrow contrast
What I thought I wanted
What I thought I needed
The name of a woman
The heart of a man
An honest feeling
Timged by thoughts of
being lonely
I created peril
I lounge In regret
Symptoms of being myself
Regrets of not
Being so much more
Wallowing
Seemingly hopeless
Pushing feelings down
Compressing in extremis
Finding solace in empty women
Knowing I'm better
Knowing I
As a man
Let thoughts linger
Fester
To amount to nothing
Empty promises
Pain an detrement
There is no salvation
In the void I've created
No woman
No miracle
That can save me
I've no course
But to man the shovel
Put truth to words
And find myself
Out of the hole
I so agreeably
Dug myself into
Salvation lies in acceptance
An the ability
No
The drive
To persevere
And find
The better man
The Pinnacle
I know I can be