Tones of Self

Dear Boy,

 

Listen closely, this isn't going to be told to you again, and I hope for the sake of anything worth loving, that you get what I mean, when I say I hate you in the most lovely of ways. I despise the curls of your hair and the smile you extend like a lovers arms. I hate the sounds of your laughter as well as your concerned voice, when I've gone to far.

 

The ways I hate thee are the ways I love thee, and if I could count them I would be endlessly in lists of love. Oh great life, far less than what one would need to efficiently express myself, my womanhood, my desire. My being as I am, and you being what I wish to hold as I am. Hope? Perhaps. Passion, blinding and hot? Of course. I am needlessly turned about, just as I thought I was safely beneath.

 

So love, lover, sweet divine experience. I say again, in the most affectionate tones of self, I hate you in the most lovely of ways.

 

It's a scary thing to realise through you that love and hate can be of the same source. A great and profound, almost sinful desire. As my heart and mind are taken in turns to your sweet ways of being in my life, my body can begin to ache, suttle and anew. The days are getting shorter, simply because I am enjoying them ever more now that your stepping through them with me. I am overwhelmed with gracious warmth, your a lovely addition to an unlovely life.

 

You must not of course confuse the fondness, the care, the concern I extend, that I call love with a grandios Romeo and Juliet type love. It is quite simply a want to be nearer to someone so much of myself, that I may continue to discover myself, which I imagine is the aim of any logical love. A testament to the relationship thus far.

Author's Note

A work in progress of course.

I think he may recognise his character..

Reviews

[fireblossom]

Describing desire and love using nothing but words is a daunting task. In this fine write you state your position and in so doing allow the facts to show us your character (or your characters character). Feisty and self-possessed and in control your character recognizes what she wants and needs. She submits because she wants to and beware the lover who thinks they own her. (At least that was the movie in my head) I really like your writing.

[DiMar4u]

yeah, that was intense, thank you..

[Chirinos20]

Please keep writing!! It is a very powerful poem. It is excellent how you use hate as a form of love. Thanks for sharing!

[Kejo]

love and hate, one and the same. You cannot love without hate, and cannot truly hate without love. Beautiful Heidi, just like you.

[Onatah]

Cool. I love it. You hate him because you love him? Love can be painful.