Just Shut Up And Drink The Coffee

Its much shorter than it looks.

Its impossible to find me, 

Because I am a lie. 

I have lived to hide me 

for a whole stupid life. 

But all this time...

You have existed 

To love me.

God, why?

Why on earth 

Did you find me? 

There is nothing 

I can say to stop 

My heart from 

Breaking when I 

Look deep in your eyes. 

You see, you've seen the truth: 

I am a lie. 

I am trying 

So hard....

So hard to act alive. 

I breathe. 

(Is that what live people do?)

I smile. 

(Is that what live people do?)

I laugh. 

(I know I've seen them do that).

Darling, keep me satisfied

Because I can't afford to die. 

Could this be me.... Crying? 

You've seen this plea. 

Will you forget it? 

Get over dramatic, desperate me? 

Will you ignore the scream

Because its only in my eyes? 

Well, after all, we like my pet lie. 

Its easier to buy 

That the cold, hard truth: 

I've always wanted to be perfect,

Perfect, just so you

Would stop tearing apart my dreams,

Stop tearing apart

The better, stronger, darker 

Parts of me. 

By grace, I am complete. 

But, honestly, 

Do you really think I'll make it out? 

Get washed away before I drown? 

Someone could always find 

My dead eyes

Staring out from the tide. 

Oh... well, never mind. 

Because it had almost seemed fine,

Until I remembered...

I am a lie. 

Author's Note

Wrote this in Barnes and Noble yesterday, when I decided to not censor myself on how I felt. I'm not sure if its art or just stress release.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I like the strong and honest words in this poem. Life can twist us up and is hard to find a place to now peace. Most of us live a life in a lie to survive. Hard to be real and know the truth in this crazy life we must live. Thank you for a excellent poem.
Coyote

[Revolutionary]

the truth is harder to hide than a lie.Great expression.The flow is crafty and it has perfect imagry of a dead smile.

[Judas Hammer]

This was a great piece. I can relate. I have been there many time. This piece brought me back. I think a great piece connects the reader with the words until they become one. you have done this here.

[laughinglullaby]

I like it. It kinda made me sad but it was a really great write. :)

[Shardbearer99]

Hey that's a really good poem and sends a strong, powerful message to people. It makes them question who they are, seeing things from a different perspective. Nicely done

[KATHY SUE SILLS]

Love the style in which you wrote this! It is ART, the emotions are strong and any reader should be able to feel them, excellent job!

[Calypso]

I'm so glad you wrote this and are sharing it. You should feel proud you're not censoring yourself.

[KAREN]

This is a powerful poem, and a good show of emotions and feelings.

[These Haunted Hallways]

Wow, yeah, pretty strong and very powerful emotions and feelings you've conveyed here. I totally know what you mean. A lot of people think mad things of me when im not those things. Those kinds of people never look deep down into the other person's heart, when in truth or reality, there is a kind soul of the other individual who is just lost, and only wanted to be loved. A very good poem. Very powerful.

M.

[Tasha]

I loved the title! This was such a strong and honest piece that I think was from art and stress release. Whichever it was good.
♥ Ta'Shandra

[J.e.s.s.i.c.a]

There is no way that this is just stress release. It sums up what a lot of people can be feeling, like they're wearing a mask of happiness. I love how you portrayed that so clearly, yet somehow incorporated an underlying sense of confusion as well. I particularly like the lines "Will you ignore the scream Because its only in my eyes?" I love it. This is great, definitely art. =)