decide in haiku

I write songs for you. you will never know of them. I'm scared to see you. butterflies fly near whenever I'm with you dear I don't understand. these are not good ones they hurt and choke me to death we cannot be one together is wrong. together is unhealthy I must keep my space. stop reading this now. even though you might miss me this is bad for us. I miss our friendship. but I don't miss the pain then. this is a hard choice.