phasing.

i go through phases like the moon. thursday it was pineapple. friday it was dancing. yesterday it was cleaning. today it's you.

you.

you and your beautiful features. you and your mesmerizing words. you and your technicolour eyes. you and your guitar. you and your thoughts. you and your lyrics. you and your depression. you and your music. you and your past.

 

i open myself one stitch at a time in regards to you. i see your face in my dreams. i die a little when i see your name. i cry myself to sleep thinking how we used to hold each other.

 

of course, you're the death of me.  my heart is my weakness, for i always listen to her.

 

you tell me it's my fault. i shake my head in reply. i can't comprehend it being my fault. i loved you with everything i could give. you took advantage of it.

 

you..you tortured me to no end. now i'm here without a heart. without a soul. you ate the life out of me, leech.

 

i liked living life with you by my side. but now? i just don't know.