CHAPTER II. FINDING MY SOUL

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“THESE TEARS”

 

I can't help myself thinking
In the past that was so different
From this moment that I endure.

I wanted to stop asking
Those endless How's and Why's
But I can't resist myself
From this muddled heart and mind
Because of you
Because of the past
That time I can't bring back.
The memories will forever stay
And a scar is that aching token
That I still have to keep
So that I'll still hold on
To these tears' painful implication.

These tears...
Will always be irrepressible
As long as I have this scar
Which keeps me secured to our memories...

 

       

         Now, who would say that I will find myself going back in this place over and over again, hoping that I could see her once more? It's been two years and I still don't want to lose any hope.


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             It's getting darker and I thought it's already time to go home. It's an another depressing day. I didn't see her shadow....just like those days that I was here.


             I stood from the bench where I usually sit, started walking and letting my eyes enjoy the views-  those happy people passing by. How I wish I could see us as one of those happy couples enjoying in this place. How I wish...


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               "Baby, come on! Come to Mommy," the voice of the woman  got my attention. I saw the mother calling the baby girl who's just starting to walk at  her young age.

               I stopped walking and watched a lovely scene that somehow I have seen once in my dreams. I smiled. I saw us walking hand in hand while our baby girl is trying to walk on her own ahead of us.

             My heart bleed again. The pain was always there. Ah, that regret...it never left me anyway. 

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                 I don't want to lose hope. I don't want to stop. Tomorrow, I will return in that place. I know we will meet again...one of these days....

Author's Note

Reviews

[NoelHC]

I like the picture your are making with this story, and am interested to see where it goes from here.
This chapter seemed to be short compared to the previous one, I wonder if a bit of repetition describing a few visits back to this place may help display the dedication, to obsession he has with seeing her again.
Minor issues with English usage, such as "let my eyes enjoy from the views" could be "letting my eyes enjoy the views" the "from" is in error. The same in " I stopped from walking" the from is not proper there.
Noel

[Dhaye]

Wow! I can't thank you enough for this review, Noel. I really appreciate it.

[A. Amos]

I love the spirit of the atory...simply splended!

[Dhaye]

Thank you, AA. Glad you like the story.

[A. Amos]

You are gifted my friend and my pleasure