Poem 35. FOR YOU

for Larry

I thought I have known so much about you for
that two years of friendship, and  another
two years of being my man, so I showed
you I'm not a doubting Thomas. I
made a decision against the
clock when you asked me
to tie our knot  because I
have known you
Enough.

Enough?
A big mistake that was
For you made that special
day, a wretched one. But in
my eyes I tried to be blind and
made myself believe that joy wouldn't
be depending upon the nuptials but the
days of living as one, as husband and wife.

We lived together like off on the wrong foot, but full
of memories, because we both knew that an angel has
given to us. You left to  make our life better, you
said. And I was hopeful that time that all your
 promises won't be broken. And I believed
in your lies, so for nine months I was
alone to carry all the hardships of
being a parent alone. You didn't
feel how hard it was..and
how many rivers of
tears I cried. How
many times
I need a
hand to
touch
to lessen
the pain.

Where
         are
               you
                  at those
                                times?
                             Please...
                       don't ruin
                    my world
              once
                  more.
                           I can
                                live
                                     alone
                                             now.
Dominique is my life. And I'm just living
because of her. She's gone, but I had
made a promise that I will live
this life for her...for us. I
know it's difficult but
I will try to survive.
And you-  you are
but a storm
which
won't
last
forever...
                                 

Author's Note

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful story in the poem. I like the way you told the story of love gain and lost. The poem had the feel of realness. Like listening to a secret tale whispered in the late hours of the night. The poem took the reader on a emotional ride through love and thoughts about a special person. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Dhaye]

Thanks, CP.

[Pax]

like a storm it will passed, we made a lot of bad choices, if someone isn't meant for us, why bother, go and fish another one. Smiles, this piece is sad, but well portrayed on the emotions, and storyline, more realistic, coz we all know some relationships has bad end, but it doesn't mean it will be bad forever, i think it's just a step to another road. Nice work pretty friend :)

[Dhaye]

What if the words TRUST and LOVE never exist in someone's vocabulary after that sad experience? I always hear from this person that "You only say that because you're not in my situation."
Thank you for the read and review, my friend. :)

[Pax]

hmm, well that person is just afraid, yeah, I may not in her/his situation but i do know the feeling. atleast that's what would i say, I know when you fall hard, and when it doesn't fall to the expectations, we also fall hard... that is part of learning, kahit na I always mourn around in days or weeks, but i am sure along the way the pain will be bearable and I can function again... then eventually it falls good when i lower down my expectation... well, i guess that's just my thoughts...

and your very much welcome my friend...

[jacob erin-cilberto]

the way this is on the page, it has several edges....sharp ones...edges cut...love cuts, very deep--

this is tragic, and well expressed in the wording.

the pain of disappointment in love, when it lets us down.

[Dhaye]

Thanks, Sir Jacob.

[SHEEMA HUQ]

This is so moving, and engaging, your epic tale has been rigorously penned with precision and has been fascinating to read. The format of your poem is also excellent, very well done Dhaye!

[Dhaye]

Thanks, Sheema. That's the story behind "Dominique'.

[Jack...]

Dhaye, this is exquisite. The form is wonderful and the sadness and pain rips through to my core. You have painted us a masterpiece and I thank you for sharing.

[Dhaye]

Thanks for dropping by, Jack. I really appreciate your kind words.

[Azure Montessa (Blue)]

I love how your poems vary. This one takes a good shape and the end is quotable:

"And you- you are
but a storm
which
won't
last
forever..."

This speaks so much optimism and strength of character. Surely every storm in our lives will pass. I believe the speaker of this poem will emerge stronger and wiser than ever.

[Dhaye]

Thanks, Blue. Actually, I am fond of making concrete poetry. You can check my Poems # 9-11 in my book Hear My Mind Volume 2 here:
http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/hearmymind96/1170562/
You can take a glance at each. Never mind to leave a comment. I know you're busy, too. Just take a look. Thanks.

[Sami Khalil]

"tears I cried. How
many times
I need a
hand to
touch
to lessen
the pain.

Where
are
you
at those
times?
Please...
don't ruin
my world
once
more.
I can
live
alone
now."

Soooo sad but yet beautiful. The music was awesome to go with the feelings here...Bravo

[Dhaye]

I agree with what you said, Sami. I know this is just a free-verse using simple words...but the story being told is not ordinary. It's not my story, but I can feel the pain of someone dear to me. So starting tonight, I will be her voice.

Thank you so much.

[Sami Khalil]

Good to know...You are welcome...:)