To Love A Lie

written to Matt, after i realized how much of a lie our relationship was.

What's it like to love a lie, to think you know who a person is?

How does it feel to give away your heart to have it thrown away again?

To love a lie is ignorance, some say ignorance is bliss.

But bliss is often short-lived, and when the truth comes out of the mists,

Your heart is torn in two, your safety net is gone.

Everything you thought you knew turns out to be so wrong.

The way he smiles, every kiss, the promises he made,

All turn out false, his smile is gone, words of venom in it's place.

A new person stands before you, nothing left of the lie you loved.

Your chest tightens, your mind shuts down, every intake of breath is rough.

So you crawl in bed to cry, and pull the covers up over your head.

He's no longer there to wipe your tears, emptiness settles itself in your chest.

Your mind flashes to that night, 2 am in the pouring rain.

The music blaring in the driveway, dancing in his arms like you're both insane.

It's freezing cold and you're soaked to the bone, wet hair plastered to your face.

He kisses your lips through the raindrops, warmth taking rain's chilly place.

He tells you goodnight, "I love you," he says, you smile as you watch him go.

You have no idea you're in love with a lie, it hurts less not to know.

So what's it like to love a lie, I know it's beautiful while it lasts.

But lies leave quick and break your heart, and leave you longing for the past.

Reviews

[Celeste21]

I completely understand where you are coming from this poem. I think all women do especially b/c men don't ever really cry themselves to sleep. We, as women, were intended to be the nurturers of the world, and with that nurturance comes supreme vulnerability to people that are wired very differently from us. Great Write. The images hit close to home.

[John Stussy]

I love the view of ignorance is bliss that you portrayed, i'm in complete agreement. This was a strong portrayal of that, and it shakes the reader with the raw quality of it all. Each memory hits with fresh emotion, renewed passion, and kept me reading to the end. Superb job!

[JohnB]

I liked the way you express your heart-wrenching emotional journey. The pain of your loss is well described as you make sense of what happened, what it was, and where you're at now. Good imagery when you describe when you gave your heart away.

[Claude]

What a beautiful portrayal of sadness, anger and truth. Well done!