Dropped the Shame

Now as your remains lay in their final resting place

I reflect back on our shared pain

You ignored your own to take care of mine

You held me in your heart always

Even as I ran ashamed of such things

 

With conflicting thoughts

All I wanted was a comfortable place for your head to lie

I know it’s a shame mama

At the time I picked up the blame

As reality sets in the claim’s ring with nothing but a lousy taste

 

I realize now playing favorites was never your thing

You held the hand of the one that needed you then

That one was usually me

 

But intentions got blurred

In my daze I felt the need to pick the better of two evils

I was mistaken because the better one was you

The only angel I ever really knew, simply fallen victim to this melancholy world

I had no business abandoning you, same way the man you made me with did

If anything for my best interest

It was your only wish

 

Even with your fear I still hear you and the old man whisper

Everything will be ok, tomorrow is a another day

It’s still true in the very same way

 

Just like you said you would give your life for anyone of us

Right or wrong, knowing or not you did

Today I can’t thank you face to face for this

So I plan on the memory of you not being in vain

I wish I could tell you mama I dropped the shame

Reviews

[Barbara Walker]

I like the syntax and diction in this narrative piece. It's a combination of tribute and lament that you pulled off without being overly sentimental or maudlin. I enjoyed reading this.