Fondly remembering Nightmares

She grabs a hold of me

I’m begging her to leave me be

I’m blind to see I’ve known her all along

In my nightmares I’m fondly remembering

 

A passion that ran through me

How it left me shivering

Just a masked heroine then with the purpose to save me from me

She was the most intimidating thing I had ever seen

 

Time passed and she became nothing more than a childish game

Nothing more than a petty imaginary thing

With time she was no longer a necessity

 

Years went by without a thought of her grace

Always I knew something was astray

Until unexpectedly one day she approached with no mask on her face

Curiously asking with all these years have you forgotten me?

 

You are not the savior I knew before

Yet you remind me so much of her

This masked heroine that is now only a ghost to me, a childish memory

You simply cannot be

 

She said to me

Let me show you what you call imaginary

I asked her to leave me be

Needless to say she rejected what I requested

 

She flung open the door to reveal childish memories

In a moment of clarity, I found an old feeling of deceitful peace

Peace can be such a deceitful thing

Arrogance and indifference can leave more than destruction in its wake

 

With haste I would fornicate with this beautiful being

After words I proclaimed we cannot do this again

Even as the passion you create fills my veins

You will surely cause me to perish

I asked her to leave me be

 

But every now and then she will reappear

Selfishly pleading for one more week-long one night stand

While I fight desire

I now know I am only fondly remembering adolescent nightmares