I just can't

I just can't f*****g take it anymore!

Nothing ever works for me,

Not trying to be depressed; I'm just pissed.

 

Pissed at myself

For no exact reason,

It's just too f*****g complicated!

 

Maybe it's a lack of confidence,

Maybe I'm just f*****g insane,

Maybe something is horribly wrong with me.

 

Something that causes me to be this way,

Something that confuses me,

Taking my down to my boiling point.

 

I'm ready to f*****g explode,

Ready to f*****g kill,

Ready to take my life.

 

What the f**k is wrong with me?

I want this so bad,

Yet I'm so unwilling to do anything!

 

Maybe I'm destined to be this way;

Is it possibility that I'm supposed to be?

But for what f*****g reason?

 

I just can't f*****g take it anymore!

Nothing ever works for me,

Not trying to be depressed; I'm just pissed.

Reviews

[Celtic Cat]

gah. I know this place. I often wonder what exactly resides in me to stand in my way and be whatever you'd call the opposite of a cheerleader. Nay sayer, perhaps? I think to an extent most people have this blockage they need to overcome in order to fulfill their purpose. But it's so much easier said then done. I wish I could offer a solution, but while I may not be consciously feeling these things today... they still exist within me. The best advice I can offer up is pretty shabby... but I'm gonna give it to you anyway.
"the mind can only entertain one thought at a time"
That's it. All the wisdom I can muster. When my mind gets the best of me.... I usually let it and write poems like these. but... sometimes..... sometimes I remember that I can only think one thought at a time so I can busy myself so I don't have time to think, or I can force myself to think of other things. Not always a success, mind you, but it's always worth the effort.

Poetically.... I love this piece. Raw and wrenching. And.... while you may not be trying to be depressed... I feel I should warn that depression is simply anger turned inward. Being pissed is not too far from being depressed, at all.

[Lady Lazarus.]

fantastic piece of work.
very human & very very good.
I've felt like this before & it captures the moodset of the person in it perfectly.