No One Understands

This is a poem I wrote in 2012 when I was going through a depression and struggling with going to school. I was 15 and now I'm 19. I remember the morning I wrote this. I needed to let out my feelings.

❝No one understands how I feel,

when I get get up in the morning.

Sometimes I feel weak,

sometimes I feel strong.

Sometimes I feel sleepy,

but sometimes I feel wrong.

I also feel like I have the world on my shoulders.

If I could tell you how I really felt,

I wouldn't even know where to start

Because it feels like everything is falling apart.

If you were in my position,

what would you do?

I bet you would do the same thing,

all the time too.

At night I barely sleep

and I always get weak.

I try not to think about the bad things,

but I always seem to fail.

And what comes out of the dreams are what scare me,

thinking that someone will tear me.

Each day I cry and cry

but it doesn't help me;

it only makes me worse.

To make everyone around me like that,

is like my idea of a curse.

I wish everyday for a better life

and I also regret what I've done.

But I can't help what I feel,

I just don't want it to be real.

I try my best to go along

but in my defense it's all wrong.

Facing people is my worst enemy,

for I shall always be a shy little girl

who never came out of her shell.

Hearing the news that i'm medically ill,

doesn't help the fact of me going up a hill.

All the way to school I try to go

but it feels like a weight is on my back;

With all the piles and piles of work to do. 

Not only work is making me hurt 

but the fact that i'm under pressure is not so good.

I'm writing this poem to let out my feelings,

even though no one will know.

I hope one day they realize how I feel

and understand what i'm going through.

I hope it's soon, i hope it's now;

before it's too late

and I go through worse.

But for now no one understands

and that's all it will ever be,

until my wish comes true.❞

" 2012-05-15 at 10:15am "

Author's Note

bare with me that I was 15 when I wrote this and I didn't add/change any mistakes. thank you for reading and let me know what you think :)

Reviews

[endless_possibilities]

Your poem is so personal and raw. Its wonderful (especially at age 15!) Writing can be such a therapeutic experience, and putting your feelings on paper is empowering and brave. Keep it up!

[JaneFoxscale]

As already said, you were doing very well in poetry even at 15. Myself being so young I don't think age matters though, just experience. And so, through that those with less life usually have less to learn from. But anyway, well done!

[JetMardium]

You have talent even at 15, i liked it was well versed.
i am 23 i felt connected to your words because i have suffered depression my whole life especially when i was about 15, 16 years old.
congrats on a great work of art

[K]

thank you so much! and i'm so sorry to hear, i hope you're doing better now :)