poem: Crossing My DesertA Chapter by Marie Anzalonereleasing some griefI do most of my traveling at 3:00 AM, when the sky's breath is bitter cold and the coyotes meld into a howling orbit 'round me; my known routes have long since washed out, and I descend the arroyos and scale the plateaus- simply attempting to delimit the parameters of my own thoughts- breadth, height, and depth; the utility function of my days. But what is there to understand? It is vain to spend a lifetime examining one's inner workings, yet what else is there? For to live an examined life, one must examine. Crossing the wasteland of my myriad deprecations- and failures of all my trespasses upon you loom like mountains, taunting me with jagged teeth in ragged skulls. When hearts are ripped out by Anubis, what makes the scale list correctly? Is it the intention, the deed, or the outcome? If I cultivated joy in Life, as a gardener would nurture tender plants in her cold clime, Will I be remembered for the warmth- or cursed for making the cold seem worse at my passing by? Are we the sum of our greatest attribuute or our basest instincts? I turn shards of rock over in my hands and examine the wounds for blood that never seems to flow where or when it should. I navigate by starlight on a night when the clouds are shifting, because the compass I received at birth appears to have broken. And even though I travel through the mystery of the night, I am learning, slowly, that there is no escape from the fire of the judgmental sun, just as I have circled back around to the barren starting point of my initial failure that I sought the oasis to escape. All those remorseful years ago.
© 2015 Marie AnzaloneAuthor's Note
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9 Reviews Added on March 19, 2010 Last Updated on August 2, 2015 AuthorMarie AnzaloneXecaracoj, Quetzaltenango, GuatemalaAboutBilingual (English and Spanish) poet, essayist, novelist, grant writer, editor, and technical writer working in Central America. "A poet's work is to name the unnameable, to point at frauds, to ta.. more..Writing
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