Never Enough LightA Poem by Marie AnzaloneSomething in me is taking its first breath; I feel the pangs of incipient birth, dragging me through that convulsing canal alongside it. Relentless, an endless flow of blackness entering an infinite sphere of light. And you stand just beyond my vision- I still cannot see if your hands guide, or if they encourage me to bear down, to push. If you will, in the end, be the inspiration, the page, the ink, the poem, or the book of collected works. My best of.
To write for another is still, betrayal. You, I have replaced, 7 times. I wrote 7 kinds of love poems for them, seeking phrases that could fill nights with longing and days with exploration; or was it the other way around? I wrote to them, wishing I had permission to write for you. To caress your skin with my tongue the way my words on their dead pages might have caressed your so-alive, vivid, breathing, imagination.
Like Joan of Arc I stand, wreathed in consuming flames, waiting for deliverance. Into a new body; a new land. An unfamiliar etching of a landscape. I hear a close-by call of one who might find me there, take the hand of the thing that emerges from those ashes- wipe my newly formed brow and say, “it’s you, it’s always been you.” To not flinch with my sincerest, “I love you.” Hold me closer when I release tears, after wearing a mask of strength and cape of indifference all day. Evading memories that could make oceans shatter and stones, weep.
What if it really will take all seven to replace you? What happens when we awaken from a dream of living, to slip back into some routine resembling a book we once read about being alive? The fox eventually sometimes catches the hare and toys with it until bored. What interior spaces get crossed, what gets left behind- on that journey from great joy into colder, more apathetic places where the heart gets held hostage? Maybe we are meant to just spend our remaining days as so many endangered wildflowers, picked to adorn the table of one miserly person who lives alone in a cave with no visitors and never enough light.
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Added on August 31, 2017Last Updated on September 7, 2017 AuthorMarie AnzaloneXecaracoj, Quetzaltenango, GuatemalaAboutBilingual (English and Spanish) poet, essayist, novelist, grant writer, editor, and technical writer working in Central America. "A poet's work is to name the unnameable, to point at frauds, to ta.. more..Writing
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