poem: Parts MissingA Chapter by Marie AnzaloneI. Dan, in half a week, it's your birthday- Been thinking of you, a lot these days. You should have seen me Monday, my new space in the office of upper management; used shoes, my best [only] suit and a scared smile- while at home, I wash my body with water heated on a camp stove. Light years away from fitting in. They have no idea, except, I think, they do. It shows. All this preening and fluttering- instead of impressing the mate, the one who gives your reviews. Equally deadly. More than half crapshoot. We know. You would laugh, we could laugh, for days. II. But that isn't what I wanted to tell you. I need to know something- all this climbing and running, leaving to move up. Am I still someone you know? Or has there been too much, too far- in-between? Does the girl you remember who hiked barefoot through nettles- does she exist when I wear heels? Is it acting now when I lay under stars and look for you among them, or have I stayed real? From where you are, can you see me, and am I still someone who you want to know? Does the light of fairies and wonderful spring miracles still apply when you live in a land coated in dust? I always wished you could have known me here. This place- it would have suited you, I think. Pleased you. III. And, Dan, don't be mad. I met someone. I tell you because... well I need to tell someone. I wish I could introduce you- you'd like him. He fell into my life like a hurricane. He reads obscure philosophy and gets answers from trees, like we do. When I sit with him, he makes me feel, like you did. Safe. Unalone. Like you, he has no idea what to make of me, do with me. One day, two awkward feet forward, each day. Like dreams that tumble from the sky, some assembly required. Parts missing. We sit half a city from each other, each wanting. Not the thing, not the act. Just the person. IV. Like the veil between you and me. Always present, forever a half-life away. We can cram that in a peace pipe, smoke it, call it Destiny. For lack of anything else. I loved you because of what I saw in me when I gazed through the mirror of you. Is that not the endless story of things, though? And, my dearest friend I wish... I still could know what you see. When you observe me now: parts found, parts missing parts standing still, too scared to attract any kind of attention at all. Parts in synch with the motion of fluid dynamics, too. An object at rest would be studied to death around us, I am sure. Would you still know me, today; Would you know me, complete? Has enough time passed, could you give my hand now to the best bidder, have I earned your reprieve at last? How do I stop missing, searching for, your particular brand of knowing? © 2015 Marie AnzaloneFeatured Review
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6 Reviews Added on April 12, 2015 Last Updated on April 26, 2015 AuthorMarie AnzaloneXecaracoj, Quetzaltenango, GuatemalaAboutBilingual (English and Spanish) poet, essayist, novelist, grant writer, editor, and technical writer working in Central America. "A poet's work is to name the unnameable, to point at frauds, to ta.. more..Writing
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