poem: the owner of these words

poem: the owner of these words

A Chapter by Marie Anzalone

mornings like this I sit with a tear

welling in the corner of my eye

and I could not explain it to anyone

just that there is some fear gnawing away

a surety that the owner of these words

over all, does not matter, here

it is a morning for remembering walking alone

and contemplation of icy rivers

a morning for seeing truth in accusations

of every person who ever hated me

some days I feel so keenly

how I was robbed, how I let it happen,

days when I need others so much

and my words reach out to silence,

to nothing reflected back, not a single

glimpse of recognition. Trying new spaces,

blocked at every turn. I think, am I ever

even really HERE?

 

Sundays are hard. Family day.

a day to take stock all I did not accomplish

in the 6 days hence the last lonefull day.

doing what am I here? with me, with you

with the sound of children's laughter

and the smell of volcanic doings

on the wind at my window; and it is hard

to see the world around me;

harder the one behind. Do we spend our

lives reading books to be enlightened,

or do we wish simply to be entertained?

Maybe I will fold up into an origami project

so I can be better fit into small spaces;

digested by the average consumer. I have

always been admonished for taking

up too much space, for wanting.

and all the things I ever wanted point

to one heartbreaking truth- a desire by

the owner of these words to simply find

acceptance, as one who walks in two worlds,

an open door that says, your kind welcome here.

 

 

 

 



© 2013 Marie Anzalone


Author's Note

Marie Anzalone
Sundays are tough and lonely sometimes

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the title of this one put its arm around my shoulder and coaxed me into the house a poem is to have a look around .. I was reading in a routine sort of way thinking, 'hmm, sundays in the UK are just like any other day now .. we don't even have the luxury of a boring day to reflect or FEEL sad in our mania to do' .. but then the poem became intensely personal towards the end of the first verse esp:

Trying new spaces,
blocked at every turn. I think, am I ever
even really HERE?

Such is the life of an indie author. But then I realise it is a common feeling. So few win and those few who do win make many losers in their way. But that raises other questions as to who or what exactly is a winner or a loser! I thought the other day that 'when we no longer need to win, we have won'. This does not mean we cease to win, just that we don't 'need' to.

Posted 11 Years Ago


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Marie Anzalone

11 Years Ago

Thank you for extremely interesting take on this piece, Orlando. I wonder when and why and how we ca.. read more
R J Askew

11 Years Ago

Men love to beat other men, often literally. A man feels great when he beats another man. Men often .. read more



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Of all the people I know in this World....you my dear Lady are the one I always can say to..."you are welcome here surely...and always"...JUST BECAUSE....

Posted 11 Years Ago


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Marie Anzalone

11 Years Ago

I appreciate your kindness, Larry... and promise you will get a virtual visit soon. Lot so of small .. read more
Larry Dyson

11 Years Ago

sometimes things and people just leave me baffled to see or even fathom the need for them and their .. read more
Marie Anzalone

11 Years Ago

you are not alone... I am often left baffled. the sounding board theory is as good as any, I guess. .. read more
Having a hard day myself , I hope you are feeling right as rain soon, this is a searching poem that I felt strongly and tugs at the heart strings.

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Marie Anzalone

11 Years Ago

I am sorry to hear you are having a rough day, too. I hope the same for you as you wish for me. Send.. read more
Corset

11 Years Ago

Thank you Marie, you too :)
you are never alone, dearest, yesterday you rode country roads with me :) You and Jill both smelled the hog barn, her forty miles away, and you so far to the south

i never thought i'd be travelling that road, with you and Sarah and Jill, very hopeful that we have set in motion , acctions that will bring comfort to a family bereft

Posted 11 Years Ago


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Shmoke-Sifted Heftlander

11 Years Ago

I saw it in 3D...the kind with the huge panoramic screen that wraps around you so you're inside the .. read more
Marie Anzalone

11 Years Ago

having that conservation right now on a different forum, different level. Not so much a question of .. read more
quinfinn

11 Years Ago

i love that movie, and the fact that the "blue monkeys" kicked a*s! very cathartic for me , as i ado.. read more
The words seem to come rough with me on Sundays also. These are family days you are right and therefore everything becomes elusive for such as us.
Your solitude enhances your craftsmanship. Your single thoughts develop along creative lines given the chance whilst you are alone. Could that not be said a positive thing. Cathartic at least?

Posted 11 Years Ago


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Marie Anzalone

11 Years Ago

I'm seeing that feeling rough on Sundays is a common theme, and it makes me glad to know I am in suc.. read more
Ken Simm.

11 Years Ago

I find going up a mountain or two, (which is where I've been for the last two weeks) helps as well.
Marie Anzalone

11 Years Ago

as soon as I have a secure income again, options like that will open to me once more. Until then, I .. read more

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Marie Anzalone

Xecaracoj, Quetzaltenango, Guatemala



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Bilingual (English and Spanish) poet, essayist, novelist, grant writer, editor, and technical writer working in Central America. "A poet's work is to name the unnameable, to point at frauds, to ta.. more..

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