poem: A Star Questions Her MoonA Chapter by Marie Anzalonefor R, with much appreciation
For that is happiness: to wander alone -Hugo Williams
1. You are a poet trapped in an engineer’s
life.
I watch you- the way you respond
to simple questions, with such care,
an enigma of consideration- How are you today, becomes a journey of discovery into the story of how your neighbor
hurt his leg
before breakfast.
You tell me that you fly in dreams, and I know it to be true, for you are just fearless enough to daydream out windows while voices drone on with their usual rapaste of excuses for the weary and famished.
Forty-seven years of vindication
for why it is necessary to break your
back
in Oaxaca to buy a sack of
corn;
for why we are condemned
to watch the land itself melt
under this new terrible onslaught.
Why your town’s children
may never again have enough to fill
distended bellies on stunted frames.
I understand your anger, for anyone
paying attention would be damned
furious.
But you drop those parcels too in front of doorsills
before entering-
considering it impolite to bring bad
energy
into another’s space.
2. I did not truly grasp resilience until I
met you-
the only man I ever knew who worked
to put himself through grade school. The wearied and oft-repeated story of your pueblo: children, 3,
abandoned to the bottle,
finding charity on cold cobblestone
streets
and sidewalks more often
than in beds. Your sister’s burned away hand
molded you, maybe, into the angry
warrior who takes life by storm.
It does not surprise me one bit-
that you found a gun strapped to your
back
in the days of greater injustice,
fighting the unwinnable war.
I will never ask how many times
you fired.
3. And I know now you brought me here-
there was something to that shaman's
story it is your call I heard across miles and
decades;
your star, you said, the one you could
hold in real life-
I only ask, how did you know where to find me?
4. a man from Texas stopped me
mid-stride- asked me
if I love you. I pondered this unbidden
query;
rolled it in my mind, tasted it,
thought:
What a strange question. Ask the tides if they love the moon
that shapes and plies them, tugs on them
both into the curve of their destiny and against their will,
and there you will find my answer.
How can one not love the perfect fit of an empty soul chamber
the width and shape of one's own body-
and yet how can one truly love from
within
those walls that keep one ensconced,
but also, keep the owner resolutely
outside of your extended reach?
only as much and in the same way as the tides ever loved their moon.
5. I know you will stand fast
and hold my hand when I am scared to
death,
overwhelmed with the weight of it all-
as we watch the soils melt like sugar
and progress unravel, like cords
trailing from the kites you lift on holidays, daydreaming of flight.
I wrap you in a hug, and feel the
strength in your frail frame. You may be the
first person
I trust will never abandon me
to this world to walk alone.
You understand my own anger, let me
have my fights;
yet you whisper to me words of pure spun
gold
when no-one is looking,
even as we engineer designs and test
them
on the hearts and minds of unsuspecting pupils,
charts open and pens graphing
and tables covered in notes.
And you will never embrace the whole of your poet self, and thus, by extension never see the me in front of you, seeing you.
It is maddening. How do I awaken every morning
not wanting to write poems
of the moon?
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Added on May 30, 2013Last Updated on August 9, 2013 Tags: Platonic love, soul friends, mysticism AuthorMarie AnzaloneXecaracoj, Quetzaltenango, GuatemalaAboutBilingual (English and Spanish) poet, essayist, novelist, grant writer, editor, and technical writer working in Central America. "A poet's work is to name the unnameable, to point at frauds, to ta.. more..Writing
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