sometimes you have to walk away from toxic people they said...

I’m usually that toxic person that your mother warned you about.

The situation you must recognize and get out before it’s too late

I’m the guy they always write quotes about on instigram, twitter, Facebook.

Hell even in the MySpace days when I was kicking it with Tom I didn’t know how cancerous I was.

I’m always leaving too much of myself just lying around.

But what about that person.

there’s no sympathy for the emotionally draining.

So everytime I bleed my soul through words I didn’t think twice about before they escaped my heart, it feels like wasted breathe.

It feels like life slipping between my very fingertips. 

On plenty of days I have died and lived to cry about it the morning after.

And boy do I cry, I wish only through tears, The tears are the best part.

tears are never forever

I wish pain acted the same.

But sometimes I cry through tear-less eyes, through nonchalance, and apathy. Through solemn silence or obnoxious laughter.

This is when I’m doing whatever to not fall apart.

This is when I’ve given up on myself and am just looking for someone to care just a bit more than I do at the moment. 

don’t just tell me I’m amazing.

I want you to tell me the truth.

Tell me I need to grow up but doesn’t everybody.

Tell me you love me even when I dont, and mean it. I’ve always been able to read lies. So if you lie, be exceptional at it.

These are the moments I want you to say “hey the rain won’t stop so why not dance in it” and then take my hand

Walk with me into the eye of the storm and tell me you feel safe in my arms.

And just when I am strong enough to walk by myself….

I want you to abandon me.

Show me that life isn’t a fairytale and there isn’t always a happy ending and that’s ok

I will die

then I will cry

Then I will live again