things of no relation

It’s 2:10 and I’m listening to sam smith’s “like I can” as a means of blocking you out of my head, only for the moment of coarse 

Earlier it was 1:15 and your smell spread across my room like your perfect smile.

At midnight I caught myself looking at pictures you posted wondering why I feel so empty.

At 11:59 I was laughing at a joke I told myself.

this morning I awoke and stretched throughout my bed, surprised to not feel you.

I had a dream and was so excited to tell you all about it.

we usually do this as soon as we greet the morning with our love.

I can’t for the life of me remember now.

It’s been too long.

Yesterday I listened to the Kendrick Lamar album and complexion came on.

that song reminds me of you for no other reason than it being beautiful.

It actually has nothing to do with you In any way.

It’s about dark skin pride and changing perception of complexion.

My brain tends to compartmentalize my love, throwing all of it in a shabby corner of my heart and creating relationships.

So when I eat pizza I think of you

When I remember my mother, your there with me.

When I feel inspired by words, they speak to me in your language.

How horrible to have indistinguishable love! Don’t you agree?

Or can you not relate?