One day we will look back on all of this with a smile, I hope. That day we will be entirely two different people, living entirely two different lives, probably two places as far away from each other as we are now mentally. On that day I will smile knowing that who I am is because of us. The good and the bad. I will smile knowing I gave you parts of my heart that I kept hidden from myself. I will smile knowing you did the same. I will smile at the realization that things end at no ones fault but God and you cant blame Him for your misfortunes yet praise Him in your successes. That’s not fair. I will smile knowing I learned to love myself in your absence and I pray you will also. Today I don’t feel the urge to smile and I would be lying if I said that I was happy or even know what that phrase means. But I know without a doubt in my mind- one day, I will smile again. One day I will be happy.