From the Outside Looking In

I’m looking at the world from the outside looking in and what I see is a cold world, full of hate and pain.
From this view, I see a lot and hear even more and the madness in the world is enough to drive me insane.
MF, I will always care for you but you caused me pain and sadness from the emotional wreck.
I must push myself away from you to keep from further harm. I must out my entire life in order in every aspect.
JP, I never meant to hurt this bad. If you would’ve told me soon, then I would’ve realized that I made myself an a*s.
I love you with all of my heart, until the day I die. By you taking control of a raging bull shows you have class.
From the outside, MF, I had help to see through you and see your true colors and deceit.
You caused me pain unimaginable and on this fateful evening, I uttered the words I don’t dare to repeat.
JP, thanks for helping look at myself inside. You’ve helped me gain some much needed self esteem and regain some pride.
Your words were strong but effective, harsh but succinct. They also made me infuriated, but instead I cried.
I don’t want to hurt to this extent ever again so please forgive me.
I greatly appreciate all that you did to open my eyes and set me myself free.
From this view, I’ve taken time to analyze a few things but I’m searching for an infatuation cure.
Jo, I want to thank you and I am greatly sorry for what I did to you. Our friendship was once strong is now even more secure.
Where to now?
I guess I must go through the grieving process in order to regain and resolidify your trust.
I want you back as my friend, my best friend and possibly more intimate if possible because it’s a must.
I’m telling you in front of the world: I truly and sincerely love, not infatuate, you.
That wasn’t me, it was an infatuated Rich. I hurt the one I love but until now, I didn’t have a clue.
Please accept my apology and come back to me because if you’re not my friend, I wouldn’t know what I would do.
I’m on the outside looking in and without you, it’s a cold world. I need you back here with me because I truly love you.
I admit I was a jerk but I felt a great deal of pain when I made you mad.
I’ve learned from my big mistake and I would never ever make you this sad.
From out here, I see the real Jo and she is simply and amazingly pretty. I’d rather have you, the real you, instead of someone who is fake.
I must go for now, love. Please accept this as my token of friendship and forgiveness. Your friendship and you as a person are the icing on my double German chocolate cake.