forget you.

a year ago, i didn't see myself like this.
i thought that this summer would be the best one ever, that i'd be able to do what i wanted when i wanted to.
but thanks to you, that's all ruined.

we've been friends for a while, since you started dating my best friend.
but when that relationship ended our friendship became stronger.
i never thought anything of this.
i thought it was just play.

then in one split second i let go of everything and gave into you.
you made me feel loved, and wanted.
you gave me some emotion that i had been searching for.
i felt complete.

until it backfired on me.

within one day, my life was forever changed.
after what happened i realized, I'd never be able to go back to our high school.
i wouldn't get a senior year.
all because of you.

for a while you still gave me all those feelings.
and no matter what everyone else was saying about you, i always found some way to say it wasn't your fault.
even after your best friend tried to tell me how you tried to take the fall.

i was willing to be there for you.
and obviously, you used me.
i guess those nights didn't mean anything to you after all.
but you sure got what you wanted.

now i realize how you truly feel about me.
i was just another girl for you to use to get what you wanted.
and you have ruined my life.
forced me into a situation where my only option is to graduate early.

i wish that you would realize how much i was looking forward to my senior year.
my last year in band.
my last year as a section leader.
my last year with all of my friends.

my last year for football games and halftime shows.
my last year for pep rallies.
my last year for marching competition.
my last year to make my mark on our school.

i threw all of that away for you to get what you wanted.
and now that you've got it, you want nothing to do with me.
now you say your life is screwed up.
well look at mine.

i've never been in trouble before.
i've always had good grades.
i had such huge plans for college.
i planned to live up my senior year.

and now it's all gone.
my friends are gone because of you.
my dignity is gone because of you.
and my trust is gone because of you.

thanks for ruining my life.
you've taken away my childhood.
you've taken away my freedom.
i hope you go nowhere and realize how much you have affected my life..

way to be an inconsiderate jerk who doesn't deserve to be my friend.