what went wrong?

someone asked me if i missed you,

all i could do was look at them and nod my head.

i couldnt say it out loud,

that i miss you.

 

i dont want to miss you because i wish you never left.

i dont want to miss you cause it brings back too many memories.

i dont want to miss you because it hurts.

i dont want to miss you because its you.

 

yes i do remember everything we every did.

my favorite was when we were under the stars on the fourth of july

watching fireworks by the lake, the best part was when

you kissed me under the fireworks.

 

thats my favorite memory, but my worst memory

was the night you broke up with me.

everytime i sit on my bed thats all i can think about,

the way you looked at me and said, "it's over."

 

plain and simple.

pain and crying.

so much time wasted.

so much love taken.

 

when i hear your name,

i tremble.

when i see a picture of you,

i cry.

 

when you hear my name,

you shrug.

when you see my picture,

it doesnt phase you.

 

i never saw it while we were together,

but i see it now,

how i was just another girl you made fall for you then

hooked up with.

 

just another girl in your book,

im sure you said im number 12.

way to make me feel special,

jerk.

 

when i see you,

i break apart.

when you see me,

im invisible.

 

what happened to make this change?

it used to be when i saw you,

my heart would skip a beat.

when you saw me,

you would pick me up spin me around and kiss me.

 

what went wrong?

did you find another girl to add to the book?

i wish you actually cared as much as you acted,

cause now im standing here broken and your standing there smiling.

 

sometimes i think you really did care,

you were just too scared to show it.

the way you talked to people about me,

and the way you held me.

 

somewhere deep down,

i know you cared at least a little bit.

even if it was microscopic,

you still cared.

 

but yet here i am,

falling apart,

barely breathing,

dying.

 

and there you are,

smiling,

laughing,

joking.

 

what went wrong?