mirror

who is this person i see when i look in the mirror,

because i sure dont recognize her at all.

 

she has been through so much and you can see it in her eyes,

all the pain she hides so that no one will ask her whats wrong.

all the sadness she has from just dealing with life,

all the lost hope floating away from her presense.

 

who is she?

she doesnt trust anyone because everyone she ever did just let her down.

she takes caution with everything she does,

the mask she wears everyday lays in her hand.

her face tells the whole story.

 

the story of how she ended up like this,

so broken and torn apart.

her heart has had it fair share of pain,

and the way she holds herself up, she looks like she's dying.

 

all of her happiness has been washed away by tears.

all of her personality was broken with her heart.

all that she wanted to be has been put on hold.

all that she is, is falling apart.

 

she only wants to be happy,

she hasnt done anything to deserve this.

she never worried about herself but what she could do for others.

she has a heart of gold but now its just gold flecks.

 

she tries to smile but its hard to believe.

and if you did believe it then take another look at her wrists,

they tell the whole story behind the fake smile.

she is so strong.

 

i cant believe that she is still alive.

she is so young but life has already taken its hits on her.

her trust is broken and no more.

she doesnt break down and cry anymore.

 

the life she use to have on her face is gone.

emotionless, numb, scared, done.

she has so much more to do for her life and yet,

she cant keep going like this.

 

something has to be able to change her,

make her happy again.

but anytime something has the chance,

she runs away from it because of the fear of being broken even more.

 

her eyes, so beautifully green,

show the many tears she has cried.

the glimmer of light has escaped her eyes.

the look of happiness in them is long gone.

 

she cant even make herself smile and believe it.

she cant stand to see herself,

all broken and lifeless.

then i realized who she is...

 

it's me.