The Number Zero (My Apologies)

A free verse poem to my ex-boyfriend. Cliche, but yet so true.

I'm thinking of a number-

And it is zero,

For the number of times

I'm going to apologize

 

If I said I'm sorry,

It would be a lie

Because you pushed me

To such extremes

 

I do love you,

And I never stopped

But you've cut me so deep

I don't think I can heal

 

I'm trying desperately

To cling to these walls

That I've built so hastily

To protect me from you

 

I'm trying to let it be

To let the dust settle

I can't seem to escape you-

I can't find a way out

 

You've blocked off every exit

As part of your master plan

You're lighting my world on fire

And leaving me to burn

 

I didn't want any of this

And I'll tell you that it's true

I didn't want to be the one

To be the death of you