the way i felt when you let me go

nothing feels right without you here

i can feel every part of my heart pounding
up down up down up down
there is a lightness traveling in waves
sparkling up from my belly button to my chest
and every time i picture you the feeling gets stronger
it's strong it's uncomfortable it's suffocating me
because i know all the little parts of you
how cute your little sunburned nose is
the way your eyebrows furrow together when you're frustrated
and how nothing is okay until you make sense of it in your own head
make sense of what's going on
of what the facts are
i love you and it's so god damned hard to let you go
i don't want to
please don't let me
please fight for me
please do anything but sit there and push me away
because you're killing me
i don't know how to breathe and i am still so in love with you