Vulnerable

I’ve never seen myself like this before

I’m not sure of anything anymore

Feelings inside waiting to be set free

Look at what you’re doing to me

 

I don’t think I can hold this in one moment longer

 

I’ve pushed away too many people in my life

I’ve set a fire to all the good things that come inside

I’ll lay down the matches and blow out the candle

Cause tonight I’m making myself vulnerable

 

My guard is finally down

My walls have crumbled to the floor

I’m showing you everything I got

And I hope that’s enough for you

I’m not sparing my feelings

I’m letting them all out

I just want the whole world to know

Even if I have to scream and shout

 

I don’t think I can hold this in one moment longer

 

I’ve pushed away too many people in my life

I’ve set a fire to all the good things that come inside

I’ll lay down the matches and blow out the candle

Cause tonight I’m making myself vulnerable

 

This is all I have left in me

And yes, I’m so scared

Scared to fall, scared crawl

Back down on the floor

What if you don’t feel the same?

What if you’ve already moved on?

I don’t know if I could take

Not having you at all

 

I don’t think I can hold this in one moment longer

 

I’ve pushed away too many people in my life

I’ve set a fire to all the good things that come inside

I’ll lay down the matches and blow out the candle

Cause tonight I’m making myself vulnerable

 

Please say you love me and never go away

Please say you love me and never go away

Please say you love me and never go away

Please say you love me and never go away

 

I’ve pushed away too many people in my life

I’ve set a fire to all the good things that come inside

I’ll lay down the matches and blow out the candle

Cause tonight I’m making myself vulnerable

I’ve pushed away too many people in my life

I’ve set a fire to all the good things that come inside

I’ll lay down the matches and blow out the candle

Cause tonight I’m making myself vulnerable

 

I have nothing else to loose

You’re love is worth fighting for

I hope that now you know how I feel

You’ll come find me knocking on my door

Reviews

[Eagle Cruagh]

Just a thought:
There are only two kind of people,
the pursuers and the pursued. The pursuers
are never happy with their catch, they will go
on to something better----then the "better? will
be the pursuer.
Just a thought.
------ Eagle Cruagh

[hannah]

Well its kind of like the whole triangle effect. You want something that you cant have, someone that may not notice you or give you the time of day. You want them to know but you don't know how to tell them because you don't want to feel rejected. That's what this poem is about, being scared but pushing past that telling someone how you feel. Making yourself vulnerable and showing your true colors. That's really hard to do and I find myself never telling someone how I feel and eventually loosing them because I cant open up. This is about me finally getting the nerve to tell someone how I feel even though I'm scared of what they might say.

[Eagle Cruagh]

I am so sorry. You said "eventually losing them because I can`t open up."
I am sorry, because that is not the reason you lose them. You lose them
because the want everything, but give nothing. You lose them because
they are a dime a dozen, the world is full of them and they are full of themselves. Be choosey--=There is a guy somewhere who deserves you
and he has the nerve to tell you---- and to listen to you. WAIT !
----- Eagle Cruagh

[SeekingMeaning]

I LOVE this stanza:

"I’ve pushed away too many people in my life
I’ve set a fire to all the good things that come inside
I’ll lay down the matches and blow out the candle
Cause tonight I’m making myself vulnerable"

What a beautifully haunting image of self-destruction.

[hannah]

thank you :)

[Zap-the-awesome]

That's cool. Now it needs guitar, a good tune, and a good voice

[hannah]

yes, trying to work on that now!

[quinfinn]

i read this and kept thinking "this would make an excellent love song...a ballad to break all hearts" and then i remembered who you are and thought, where does this precious girl find all this worldly experience? you are such a profound and deliberate writer and, i feel, soon to be one of the popular and prolific writers on this site. the words you write are dreams, touching all who embrace your poetry. this is superb. this gift should always be shared amongst your friends...and the world.

[hannah]

wow thank you so much I really appreciate the encouragement