Leaving

'No'

'Why?'

'You know why.'

'Please. It's ridiculous.'

'How can you say that? After everything that's happened?'

'You can get through it. It's no reason to leave.'

'Yes it is. I can't forget it. Not while he's still around. You think people will forget? Trust me, they won't. And seeing as no one believes me anyway, I just can't handle this. Maybe you're right. Maybe one day I'll come back. But why can't you accept that for now, this is my decision? I'm leaving. Get that?'

'Look, I understand. But can't you just lie low for a bit?

'What, and look as though I'm hiding? Because that's what I'll be doing. Hiding. Hiding from everything bad that's happened. I'd rather just leave. I know everyone's going to think I'm running away, but I'm not. I need to start again. They can think whatever they want, I'm not coming back.'

'Please... I can't leave.... And I don't know what I'll do without you here...'

'Ha, yeah right. You think I don't know what you've been up to? Even after all the pain and lies I've been through, you actually have the nerve to stand there and tell me that I'm the only one for you?'

'I don't know what you're talking about...'

'Yes you do! You thought, oh no, my girlfriend's pregnant, what am I going to do now? I'd have paid to see your face after you found out it wasn't yours. What did you do then? Go running over to Little Miss Desperate and cry your eyes out over all the stress you're going through? Well guess what, you're not the only one who's gone through all this bad stuff, so for once in your life, think about someone else and not yourself for a change!'

'How can you say that? I've been there for you all along!'

'No you haven't. Where were you the night it all happened? You were meant to be with me! I told you I was afraid, and you insisted it was all in my head! Where were you in the days after that? I was so scared, and all you were doing was running about shagging every girl that's ever wanted you! And then where were you when I was in hospital? No, the only time you were ever there for me was before and after this nightmare all happened. So don't give me this bullshit.'

'Fine. You say I wasn't there for you? I won't ever be there for you again. I'm leaving.'

'That's right, you run off to whatever slag takes your fancy. I don't give a damm anymore, because once I'm out of this crappy little town, I'm free. And I won't need you anymore.'

 

He stared at me for a second, opening his mouth as if too say something. Then his face hardened, and he left, running down the stairs, slamming the front door behind him. I turned and watched him walk down the drive out the window. A single tear ran down my face, before I viciously wiped it away. I picked up my bag, and walked out the same way I just watched him go. But this time I wasn't running after him. This time, I was leaving it for good.