i love you but it’s not enough for you

i could never really find the words to explain how much love i have for you. i never imagined loving someone this much. especially someone that i met while i was so young and so immature. i had a feeling we would not last, it just was not bound to happen. but we got so far together and i am proud of that because i never expected to get this far with you. you are my life. you are everything to me. we have our moments and we have our fights and we disrespect each other in ways we should not know how. but we are in love. at least i am. i have ran in circles trying my hardest to make you happy. but i messed us up. i cheated when i felt low and unwanted. i felt unappreciated. i was unhappy but i still wanted you. i kept secrets, i hid things from you and i had a serious problem with lying. but i felt unappreciated. i felt lonely. i felt bad for myself. and i felt unwanted. it wasn’t my intention to hurt you. i just craved to feel loved, i craved attention as i craved some one new. but i was stupid. i was selfish and i was wrong for what i have done. the moment you took me back was the moment i swore i was changed. things fell off. things went downhill after i swore we were happy again. we fell apart, and it was all my fault. if it wasn’t for my mistakes in the beginning, i wouldn’t be sitting here, crying still, because i’m still feeling lonely. i’m still feeling unwanted. and i’m still craving attention. but i don’t want anyone else this time. i’ve realized i want you. but i don’t want to feel this sadness anymore. i don’t want to feel the pain you bring me anymore. but i’m in love. i’m young and i’m in love. i can’t talk to you about my problems because you don’t want to hear them. i can’t explain how i’m feeling because you complain that i day the same things over and over. and when you truly see that i’m hurt, you change for a couple of days but then go back to your old ways when you’re nothing but careless. but i love you. i love everything about you. we are so toxic together but i just can’t get you out of my head. i want you so badly but you don’t feel the same. i don’t know how else to get my point across to you. you’re all i want. i love you. but i’m just not enough for you.

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[May]

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