CHIMERA IN MY BRAIN

...when a dead person isn't actually dead.

CHIMERA IN MY BRAIN

You died a tragic inevitable death.

Apparently it was your choice to cease your breath.

I was there at your funeral.

Everyone was there to remark.

But they didn't seem to feel

the awful grief that I felt.

I was crying a river of infinite tears,

Hoping it was just one of those horrible nightmares.

But your death was so vividly real.

And there was nothing more to appeal.

Some nights, I caught myself in capricious fiction,

Hearing sweet whispers of our previous love and devotion. 

Echoes of beautiful memories,

Playing like lovely melodies.

But some other nights, there were sounds of terror,

Howling in agony and intense sorrow.

The painful screams were like a knife cutting every inch of my flesh,

And I was bleeding profusely even deep down through my chest.

I wondered how could a dead person be capable of doing this much.

And it got me thinking of what's real and what's not.

Reviews

[Iris]

This is beautiful. Heart-wrenching, painful sorrow, told of the days when the remnants of the deceased go bipolar. They switch between "melodies" of the past and the "terror" of the future. Simply amazing. You're very talented. Looking forward to more of your work.

[hanir]

Right! Painful sorrow indeed.
Thank you for such a nice review! 😊

[Iris]

You're very welcome.

[Jyoti_Ablaze]

Wow! Enjoyed the vivid imagery!
An avalanche of emotions delivered in a few words.
Finely woven write!

[hanir]

Thanks for reviewing! 😊

[Jyoti_Ablaze]

You are welcome.

[Anna]

I really enjoyed this, and it was an excellent write. It was heart wrenching, while at the same time having an odd sense of peace only derived from the aftermath of loss.

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This piece took my breath away.
Jarring and heartbreaking at the same time.
Like someone was slowly punching holes in
my soul. Intense.

[hanir]

Thank you. Im so glad you liked it. 😊

[zephyr]

The titled hooked me. A great psychological write with great wording. The hardest mystery to solve is often the working of our own minds.

[hanir]

Thank you for taking time to read. 😊

[Edis Radoncic]

wow this is great! this sounds like a beautiful mind.

[hanir]

Thank you. I appreciate it. 😊

[Wordzika]

your words drip with poignance and agony over the loss of a loved one. Haunting and yet so beautiful!

[butterfly desire]

This was very beautiful,sad but beautiful
and true those that commit suicide are so
Lost in thier own darkness that they forget
the wall of pain that will fall on those they love

[SIAN]

Touching words, personally close to my heart. A poem I myself feel could help heal. Hanir shows an extraordinary gift for lament and strikes deep accord with the intimate feelings of loss...indeed interpreters them with beautiful notes.

[hanir]

Thank you for taking time to read.
I deeply appreciate it. 😊

[SIAN]

My pleasure Hanir.

[JulianaSun]

Haunted by the memory of a lost love and a lost lover...
The poem reads like a bittersweet song. Love and pain dance hand in hand, tormtenting and taunting the one unable to let go.
it´s easy to say " move on", but sometimes it´s impossible to turn over the page and forget those we have loved and lost.

[hanir]

Definitely its hard...or probably impossible to let go...
Thank you for such a well versed review. 😊