i'm not sorry

i'm not sorry for what you think

'm not sorry if i did hurt anyone of you or did something you did not like because i try to be honest with myself i just say what's on my mind with no fear or Any kind of regret. I'm far from perfect, there are so many lessons I done learned , life is a crazy ride and no matter how we do or how we thinks, we still don't know nothing about Each Other not even 1%, i may not get a chance again to say the truth. but look at me No body knows what the f**k I'm going through with my miserably life;; no body knows the s**t I'm dealing with;, no body knows the danger around me there are things i would have never got to say i'll keep'em deep, hell we make  perfect fake faces and put them on in order to face the world and we hide the true ones forever so we can act like normal people . in fact there are no normal people;, there are fake peoples collecting a fake world ;, i do not trust nobody ... nobody should. this is all I know, this is why so hard I go, We have lost in our desires We Become aliens with human faces we act and pretend like if we f*****g care about the world meanwhile all what we care about is how could hide the ugly true faces, i can't understand this world, sometimes we find Ourselves looking for the truth and doing our best to get it but just when we realize the oz of the painful truth we get shocks and start faking the reasons then we come to admit our failed ...Feels like I'm going psycho again, i live in a bubble should i blow it ? yes? no? i don't think so!. i haven't been this confused since I was that weak kid behind! who made me wanna change my f*****g life I've been having ups and downs even my friends Can see I'm grieving I try and hide it But I can't, why do I act like I'm all high and mighty, When inside, I'm dying! i used to lock myself in my room i needed to be on my own again so i sit alone in my dark home i can't go out, there's nothing out unless some f*****g drug dealers owe me, Maybe this is good for me ,Maybe I'm supposed to go crazy with this frown smile on my face, and that beautiful hatred in my heart, It's tragic, it's sad it's my corner Accept it, respect it , haha it's funny a friend just came and told me i'm 80% pessimist . what would i say ? oh yeah i say if i wasn't optimist i wouldn't kept alive until this moment i have to be able to smile through all this bullshit otherwise i'm going to choke up when walking straight into that black fog it ain't white anymore may it be red the next day may it be blue,! but no doubt it's gonna be more worst and i lost my way between those peaks and valleys ups and downs this is how i'm spending my ride on that path , I've tried to go like i never had a problem, i did so because i just wanted to fit in everywhere i went , i was acting stupid all the time so nobody noticed my background, i knew who was trying to use me and who was trying to be honest with me, some of them destroyed me, some hurt me, and some supported me, but every time they make me get some harm i keep it in my memory and no matter i forgive i don't forget .

Author's Note

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