Letter Of Guilt

Dear …"A"

I don't know what to say , but sometimes  when I am alone in the shadow of life  , I keep messing with the sweet memories I had.. And in every time, your memory appears like a sparkling star among the dark…

 I think maybe you forgot me , sure! busy in your life , your wife , your home…

I know it is late ..but sometimes I wish to see you by chance someday ,A meeting being made by the hands of fate… And to look at your eyes and say I am sorry for every pain I caused you, for every tear fallen for me…

You once gave me your heart , your love, you promised me with a life… But I gave it back to you and told you " I'm not interested "

I was young …Naive … And  "love" wasn't in my calendar that year… but you couldn't understand what I was feeling… I remember when you told me … You are a rock can't you feel !! , you   are   cruel … You are a punishment from god ! cause I used to say it a lot before, without hitting my heart , but when I did fall for you , you simply said No..

But after these years which passed and fell like leaves in autumn , I realized what does love means … I realized how hard to give someone your heart, your love …How precious and invaluable is…This love…

I realized how sad and miserable I made you …How cruel I was .But pardon me I didn't know how is like to be in love.

But I still believe , even if I responded to your call , we would suffer with no hope , I made it short for me and you… Believe me …

And if it is Comforting you , my heart still empty , no one till now was enough for me , or maybe you cursed me , if my heart wasn't yours no one else shall have it…

I wish from the bottom of my lost heart , to see you someday , somewhere And just to say "I'm sorry , Mr A"

Reviews

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

These things happen, love is a funny old thing...we just hope we find someone who equally loves us....and should feel honoured when someone loves us...
you feel you were cruel, but perhaps saved you from things we don't know about...but shows your caring nature and that you have a soft heart :)

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Thank you ^_^

[Dalia]

You also write stories in English Hadeel, this one is just wonderful, heartbreaking but your style is beautiful . great job :)

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Yeah but not much it was more like a letter with a story :)
but thank you , i am very happy that you liked it :)

[Dalia]

you are most welcome dear :)

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

:)

[Yasmin]

This is beautiful piece of work
I love the emotions in it and I love how you were honest in each word
and you finished it beautifully
Well done

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Thank you Yaz :*

[Yasmin]

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy..]

Guess what ,i saw him today by chance , i didn't see him for 6 years
its strange situation , i really felt happy , but i couldn't apologize to him ,
and he was stressed and changed his way !

[Renée]

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[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

:)

[MOON]

Emotional think maybe we underestimate the courage it takes to express love. We turn away or dismiss not realising the hurt at the moment. Lovely write.

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Thank you :) i appreciate it

[Renée]

What is done with the intent of giving pain..is cruel.. what is done in innocence is not cruel, it is a learning lesson of life...
You sweet Hadeel were innocent .. not cruel..
Just know love will come again and Hadeel... your not alone in what happened..I think many (including myself) have been where you are..
You letter is beautiful and I am glad to read ...Thank you for sharing

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Welcome my sweet friend xoxo

[Ahmad Cox]

I hope you are able to find the forgiveness you need. :)

[Southern Cross]

What a deep lamenting poem. I think in all our lives, there is a person or two that we would like to send this poem off to. The one that got away because we were not ready and in that the hurt we may have caused. Even Adele wrote of it in her song, Someone Like You. This poem reminded me of this song.

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Yeah indeed its remind me of Adele song too , which i love so much , but the difference was that in my case i didn't love him , after theses years and experiencing many things i realized how pain i caused him since .. i wish the right one would hold the same love or much bigger for me :)

[Southern Cross]

It's always the ones we love that seem to love us less while the ones we don't adore us ...*Deep sigh*

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Yeah , this is life !

[Crissie Luce]

This beautiful hadeel!:-)

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Thanks ^_^

[Frieda P]

Love is a lot like other factors and things in our life, when we have it, we sometimes take it for granted, and when it's gone, we want it. T'was a sad tale but someone that knows her mind for sure, so it doesn't leave you feeling empty. Nice one Hadeel.

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

Thank you a lot :)

[Lozzie]

I'm... i'm stuck for a reveiw... I really don't know what to say... I can say that if something bad did happen between you two that it would be for a reason... though it is more than likely (and pretty obviously) not clear at the present time that it will be when that person who will fill that space does actually come into your life. If you do meet the real Him i beleive you will know immediately... you cannot miss them... Thats what i think anyway.... :P

Hey... XD I igrued out soemthng to say :P I'm not weird or anything :P

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy )]

No not at all i appreciate it ^_^ thanx lozzie