A prior birthday epiphany

I'm actually less than an hour I'm turning 23 and it's been quite a journey. in less than a year I went from heaven to hell back and forth so many times I lost count. I went from being surrounded b pole I loved in a way I never expected to being a stranger in my own hometown. To losing myself and learning about the kid I used I see in the mirror, from being happy to let the sadness tear me up from the inside.  Yes, I grew up, I was surprised, I allowed myself to be dissapointed by people for one last time, I let the wall keeping me away from falling for a guy down. They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, I say fight back.

There are lessons I must never forget, and I mean it when I say never. The first comes to friends. Friends are magical beings that appear in your life and are loyal to you no matter what. They'd take the bullet for you. They'd swallow their sadness to cheer you up. Friends are beyond time and space, beyond destiny and destinations. Friends always find each other. They try to never lose that bond that brough us together in the first place. Friends are real friends. Abroad, I realized who was always there for me, home, I realized who was really looking after me. Friends would ie your friends. The rest, well, they don't deserve you.

The second lesson is love. There are so many lesson about love. How it comes to your life when you less expect it. How amazing it feels. How it can make you feel butterflies of the size of a whale. However, so far, I've heard only one song saying the sad true about love. The song said ''I came along, I disn't know of love, but now I know that sometimes it's just not enough''. The sad, ugly, s****y true is that. Sometimes our own selfishness overcomes the power the power of love, sometimes it's our dreams, sometimes love is just not powerful enough. And some other times, we were never supposed to fall in love, even if both persons do.

And as poetically, things usually come at three, five or seven, there is a third and last lesson I learned. It's about walls. We can get beaten up so hard in our life in so many levels that we build up a thousand walls so protect ourselves from pain. And they are damn effective. However, they also keep the good things out. They leave out those things live is worth living for. Those romantic  moments when someone says 'I like you' or even those friends making you know how much you mean to them. Learn for my mistakes. Learn from my mistakes.