The Ride

A reflective poem surmising how God has been with me even in my darkest times.

I went for a drive today
To clear my thoughts
And somehow find my way-
Lost and alone I have been
Burdened from regrets
Carrying the weight
Of my sins-
Broken and sorrowful was I
My soul no more wanted to live
And the tears I couldn't
Help but cry-
The tears fell like Summer rain
My sorrow the more
Embrace thou my heart
So much pain-
So many mistakes
In my life now I've made
And it seemed God had not heard me
No matter how much
I had prayed-
Lost in my anguish
Consumed in my sorrow
Bereft in my guilt
I cared not for any tomorrows-
Faster I went
Because no more did I care
Of this world I wanted not
To be a part of and share-
I let go of the wheel
And over the hill I went
No more would I feel
So tired was I
Broken and rent-
But there in that moment
I realized what I'd done
Giving up my tomorrows
And each rising sun.
So I prayed to a God
That I knew now
Had to be there
It was not him but me
That had forgot how to care-
Blessings to me each day
He had gave
My home and my health
Each day to save-
Two beautiful sons, my family
And to be a wonderful mans wife
I had been blinded to the beauty
And just saw the strife-
Please dear God
Don't let me die
I see now all the
Reasons why I had to cry-
I was an Angel
A diamond so strong
You were teaching me
Like a loving father
Through all of my wrongs-
Let me live sweet lord
At least one more day
That I can say I love you
To those close to me
And tell them you are everywhere
Even if they cannot see-
In that moment my eyes opened
And who did I see
My precious family
Who had never forsook me-
The tears fell gently down my face
And oh how I cried
But I realized God had rode shotgun with me the day I took the ride.