MY HEART IN YOUR HANDS...

*My longest poem yet... this one is very important to me and today I decided to share it. Hope you guys liked it! Blessings...

I think about you day and night,

I do not stop ... sometimes it's exhausting.

Other times? It consumes me,

I do not know what to do.

I think about you day and night,

I keep thinking and that torments me.

It hurts ... it punishes me and I can not write you again,

Because you already know how I feel.

I think about you day and night,

But, it's inevitable ... it's not normal.

I do not know if it is right or wrong, much less I know who I am,

Sadness eats me little by little.

I think about you day and night,

Depression and loneliness are not left behind.

I think to keep reminding you with that same love and hunelo,

I do not want to forget you, I think you every day.

I think about you day and night,

Being distracted or doing other things.

But no, there you are without leaving ... without nebule,

I think about you because I miss you and I do not know how to talk to you anymore.

I think about you day and night,

You already know everything ... EVERYTHING.

I think you because you've been the only one I've really loved,

I love you with my heart even though we were getting to know each other.

I think about you day and night,

I like to know you because you knew how to get inside my head.

In each of my feelings and thoughts,

Of my anguish, my pains, my smiles and my imperfections.

I think about you day and night,

You knew how to get into my privacy and I do not talk about sex.

From me entirely and in such a short time,

I lost you and I miss you after all.

I think about you day and night,

I tried to be strong, to focus on finding other ways.

I tried to know something new ... but I ended up hurt more,

And twice over; but they are no longer relevant.

I think about you day and night,

In whatever circumstance I had ... you're still there.

Damn you, you do not go out of my mind and I do not know how to forget you,

I really try but I can not do it.

I think about you day and night,

I am realizing that I am exhausted.

I am very weak, vulnerable ... maybe,

I'm lost, I do not know who I am honestly.

I think about you day and night,

And the same pain is still there ... intact.

As if you threw the knife in the same wound and you never stopped,

Thus, with pain ... sadness and without any sense to be oneself.

I think about you day and night,

Maybe everything is empty ... or not.

Maybe without direction and without any purpose,

Every day you hurt me more.

I think about you day and night,

Exactly, the necessary time has passed to forget you.

But, I can not and everything is still stored in my mind,

How do I tell my heart to stop loving you?

I think about you day and night,

The reality is that I can not stop loving you.

And that's when simply; I do not care anymore,

The disappointments ... the purposes and the reasons.

I think about you day and night,

The friendships, the promises and the whys and give me the same.

You were the only one that I knew how to value and that I have known how to miss with pain,

The tears are not over and I miss you so much.

I think about you day and night,

The kisses, the few hugs ... the calls and your affections.

I miss your unexpected "you love" and your "we love you",

I miss seeing you smile; that you died of laughter without importing anything.

I think about you day and night,

I miss you unconditional security of things.

The fact that you never asked for anything in return and in one way or another,

I had made you a little happy ... and that? It was enough for me.

I think about you day and night,

With you I had everything, even though we were only knowing each other.

I miss our visions of how we would be in life,

I miss the simple fact that I was happy without realizing it.

I think about you day and night,

And on top of all the problems ... you were there from the first day.

I miss you so much and you do not have the slightest idea of ​​the affection I have for you,

You do not know of my exhaustion ... of day and night running.

I think about you day and night,

Time is still running and my hopes are still intact.

You do not know about my love, about the days I smile with falsehood,

You do not know about my distractions and much less about my actions.

I think about you day and night,

You do not know how lost I have been and how this affects me.

I have learned so much to grow and mature,

To make changing decisions.

I think about you day and night,

But, life is like that and you never stop learning.

We never stop living and in the same way we keep moving forward,

Nothing is the same anymore ... obvious; Life is very ironic.

I think about you day and night,

Sometimes life is good ... other times it's bad.

But, things happen for a reason and I'm still here;

Looking for a f*****g reason for everything.

I think about you day and night,

You can think that I am crazy or even bad in everything.

But why judge of someone who has always really loved?

Tell me how? Because I do not have the answer.

I think about you day and night,

The other things that I need to take out; I do not know how to say them.

I will never know if one day; we will be together again or not,

Or if you really know how I really felt.

I think about you day and night,

I do not know if you'll ever know the truth after all this time.

I have so much s**t on me that I'm tired of it,

But, I will not write it ... I will keep it deep inside me.

I think about you day and night,

Everything will be saved because my heart will know when to say it.

When you are ready or not.

Never many pages, a book or a long poem describe my pain.

I think about you day and night,

Not even a long conversation with a cup of coffee,

I'll be able to explain what's still intact inside of me for you.

There, ... alone and clean.

I think about you day and night,

There is all my love; a little hurt and confused.

I miss you so much ... so much,

With tears in my eyes it is much worse ... trust what I say.

I think about you day and night,

But, before breaking into a thousand pieces once more.

I will always be there for you ... always,

My life, I love you like nothing in this world.

I think about you day and night,

And so it will be until I do not know how much,

One hour, weeks, months ... years?

I dont know.

I think about you day and night,

But as long as that love is there; I will not forget you.

Not yet,

You are the sunflower until the end of my happiness.

Author's Note

Ignore grammar problems or dialogue...

Reviews

[Dave]

Alexandra -
When expressing such strong feelings I don't feel it's necessary to be concerned with grammatical correctness. Your writing evokes so much empathy. I can feel the love you have and also the angst over the realization that it is unrequited. This is a very powerful write.

Take care - Dave

[Alexandra G.]

Thanks so much for your kind review Dave, means a lot! Blessings...

[Coyote Poetry]

I enjoyed the epic journey in your words dear Alexandra.
"I think about you day and night,
But as long as that love is there; I will not forget you.
Not yet,
You are the sunflower until the end of my happiness."
I loved the above ending and when love steal our heart. We are done. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[barleygirl]

This is a very intense & powerfully written poem of heartache & longing for another person. I usually do not like heartbreak poems, nor do I like poems with a bunch of repeated lines. But your poem is very effective & I was completely taken in by the urgent pleading tone, almost a crazed aspect, so the repeated lines add to the frantic feelings you're putting across so strongly. I am afraid this poem displays an almost-alarming degree of obsessing over another person, which I do not think is a good idea for this person (& I get the feeling it's you). I worry about someone this obsessed. But as a writer, you have captured it so vividly. I like the way you reveal little tidbits in each stanza, leaving the reader wanting to know much more, but we have to read thru some agonizing lines before you drop a few more tidbits about the details of what went wrong & where is this guy. This slow dripping out of pertinent details gives your poem an almost-addictive quality, as we suck up more of your agonizing, so we can find out a little bit more about what this is all about. In this way, you write in a way that makes the reader FEEL as addicted as the narrator sounds like she is! This is all the stuff I usually dislike about writing, but I love everything about this! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Alexandra G.]

Omg Margie! Thanks for your rewarding tips and suggestions... quite perspective. Blessings to you!

[HadesRising]

You're grammar isn't that bad. Lol

I think this is actually very well written. Really well polished and meaningful. Well done.

[Alexandra G.]

Thank you!!!!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i like the paradox of this..."I will not write it" and yet you profess it without repress...
and this has to mean something to the subject of this poem...to be loved this strongly...not so many are lucky enough to get this kind of love.
j.

[Alexandra G.]

Thanks so much for your review and your thoughtful words... Love is such a strong feeling; so powerful, so amusing... Blessings!!!