Tonight

I am caught on edge,

unable to explain tonight correctly.

Not finding any of the

right words to capture any of it

nicely.

 

The screaming crowd,

jumping, throwing bodies,

sweat and chest pounding

with the bass drum turned up loudly.

Surrounded by people,

some of who I think

could save me. I don’t

know how to put it.

But everything is clicking.
This is the start of something.

                the beginning of some

new chapter that i’m not sure of

           yet.

 

Driving home in the cold

night, with my heater on high

and my windows down.
The sky was amazing. And my

thoughts kept running miles ahead of

me. I don’t know when I started

becoming this person

that I am waking up in. Who’s

skin catches me off guard.

Who’s spirit is finally blazing

and unchecked by any thing.

Except her own uncertainty.

 

I do not know where to start, or

end tonight. I’m caught here,

thinking of you, and wishing I had

the words to explain any of it.