Fragile

all night

                turning, restless. I am in a

purgatory of not knowing either way.

 

You saw me trying to hold my chest

together as I sobbed

                                as I broke and faltered.

and didn’t run away.

you stayed.

                quite. And just waited for me.

didn’t say

                                                “oh sweetie it’s going to be alright.”

just silent and steady.

    everything i needed.

 

 

but do you lay any claim here on me?

if I was crying over another fellow, or wanting

                someone, anyone, other than you

would it hurt you at all?

Because right now, I am yours.

    a package deal, all the crazy,

                                but I’ll try my best to survive for you.

do anything for you.

but.

                I don’t even know if you

                                want me.

 

I don’t  need a

                                yes we are “dating”

I just want something....

                for me to know that

yes you’d be upset if I started

chatting up someone else.

that yes, you’d miss me.

anything.

 

 

 

and i hate this feeling.

hate knowing that i am cornering you.

I don’t mean to.  I truly

wish I didn’t feel any of this.

but my arm is running

out of space, and I have no idea

what else to do about this.

 

Because thinking about you,

all night,

                turning, edgy

                                unsure and on edge

           isn’t cutting it.

I laid in bed for 9 hours.

the longest I’ve tried to sleep

                in months. I thought

that maybe i’d be able to out

run my thoughts of you.

                                instead I just

kept waking up.

                                  wanting nothing else,

           other than you.

say something, please.

                because I am much more fragile then I portray.

 

Reviews

[No]

i am in awe of the dedication and frequency to which you write.
i see each poem as sort of a journal entry, and they are all connected and mean something deeply to you which can be felt by the reader.
i'm sorry i didn't comment about this particular work in general, i would just like to give my overall perspective of you as a talented writer and your works as offspring of that dedication.
here anytime,
fragile as well,
fellow slave to the keyboard as well as sharp pointed objects,
friend,
mary jane

[Ignorance Was Bliss Eve..]

Thats a great poem. I can relate, in a way.
With my significant other.
I really like the way you wrote this.
Like the structure lol
It's amazing.

[Priest Rada]

Wow, Beautiful. That is all I can say right now.

[PianoandPage]

kudos on the subtle play on "cutting". i really connected with the feelings here. of needing someone to care and feeling helpless and frustrated with the patterns and habits that surface.

[Colleen C Dunphy]

everything to write seems to be pulled straight from my heart and my head... i am right there with you, always.

[Silver_Moon]

I think in love everybody is fragile.

A good demonstration of how a woman can be so fragile when it comes to love.

Keep up the good work! :D