Alright.

 

I am alright. I can keep telling myself that

until it somehow morphs into being true.

Because I can’t lie to you. I did hurt when that

little bit of hope and what have you, that I built up

last night, fell through.

Not that I’m not happy for you. I’m ecstatic. I am

so glad that you are trying to work stuff out..

But in a small little tiny corner of my brain,

I still can’t  help but feel let down.

Which upsets me even more. ‘Cause don’t get

me wrong or anything, your great and all that...

But I shouldn’t be letting you affect me like this.

I should be stronger than needing anything.

                let alone anyone.

And when you say stuff like

“You’re the type of person

 I could fall pretty hard for.”

It starts all over again.

Suddenly, the feelings I spent all night

cramming back into their hole..

they spill out. Ooze between the cracks in

our conversation. the “what if’s”...

I am stuck here... caught between knowing

that i could love you so much more and

also knowing that I should just be here

for you as your friend..

And but here’s the thing..

I don’t want to be anywhere

else.

Reviews

[Raef C. Boylan]

Like the other reviewers here, I enjoyed the direct and straightforward tone of this. I also like your layout, how you haven't babytalked it into lines but kept passages whole; it works well.
Your narrator makes the situation and their feelings clear to us, and we relate because they're humanly weak in the way that we all are.
Good write. Thanks for sharing it with us.

p.s.
"your great and all that..." [you're]

[Mae Bee]

As a voice to the collective, i'm echoing their adoration to this piece's straight forward tone. It's cut clean and clear, leaving no shadows, just honest and brilliant truth. In short, i as well love the layout. It's easy and gives the piece something extra.

loved it.

[Aaron B.]

This is amazing!

I love the free verse and the way you sum up the emotions of liking someone...

Also that battle that goes on in the heart between what one wants and what may be right...!

[Parker Pearl]

oh man.
i am madly in love with this piece.
the plain speech it is written in brings forth the honesty behind it, the brutal truth.
this is f*****g wonderful.