Lets Fake Happiness Just One More Time.

Another older one..

I'm sorry that I don't tell you
everything
and that when something’s wrong
I turn the other way
I can speak, rant, rave
about anything and everything
else
but once you get below
skin deep
you've pretty much caused me
to lose my tongue
I don't like to tell you
all the things that hurt
and make sleeping
completely impossible.
I'd rather let you know
all the little things
that don't really
get too deep in my
brain.

And sweetheart
I'm sorry
And I know I'm a
B***h
butijustcan'thelpit
You're the only only only
person
who I really don't
want to hurt
so forgive me
please
[omg please forgive me]
for never calling enough
and always backing out
because I am so afraid
that I'm going to
fall apart
and you'll see through this
well formed wall
that now and then
falls to bits
when you're around

So love, my lovemylove
I love you
I love you
love you
But I can't tell you
can't tell you
Because
Truthfully
I'm almost f*****g positive
you'd run
the other way
if you ever knew the
truth
about anything of this

Reviews

[Adrian K. Smith]

I am used to a world of pull 'n push. Pulling the person in and then pushing them away. It is interesting to think of the sense of a pull 'n stop, wander off. Wanting the person to know you, but afraid that when they do - they will leave. I cannot imagine the fear quite like that(I tend to throw all the bad stuff at the person first to make sure they do not get close). It left me to wonder about it, this active and passive alternative to pulling that so many of us do.

[B.J.Brady]

I like the way you capture the feeling and frustration of wanting to let someone so important into your life. I certainly understood and felt the helplessness of wanting to let someone in but being afraid of the possible loss if you did.

[Laura E. Aranda]

This is the first piece that I read other than your bio. It is definitely heartfelt
My heart strings were tugged., It was an easy read
I got thru it quickly
cheers,lea

[a]

Very straight and passionate! Quite strong emotional monologue, powerful with it's expressions. Very psychologically revealing, and at the same time it's possible to feel that there are some unsaid words and (maybe) forgotten desires, unfulfilled wishes. Love it!

[paradoxical]

I really like this. You put my relationship fears into words. Thank you. :)

~Kay

[Raj]

Free flow. That's what struck me at first. You are literally conversing here and if I am the guy at the other end, the answer would've been real positive:)

Really, it's a very good effort and straight from the heart. Keep it that way. You will scale heights.

Cheers!

[Lexy]

"I speak, rant, rave/about anything and everything/ else"
I know that feeling all too well.
You did an excellent job on this. It feels like you were speaking my words, words that I've never been able to say to anyone.
I give you 3 thumbs (If I had 3 :b) up.