Janus tongue

With a head full of wasps,   I see faces

                                                 faces

with a head full of wasps

I dream of the orgasmic 

death sting

with a head full of wasps

I sing

bzzzzzzzmmmmm

what does it f*****g mean,

with a head full of wasps

sting sting sting

Reviews

[Eilis]

I have read this poem many times. Even started to write a review once or twice, but in the end, I have always moved away.

Not sure I can explain that. Maybe it’s like trying to explain the buzzing I’ve heard in my own head and feeling the words I have are inadequate.

Sometimes we are far from masters of our own minds. The Janus symbol, again, though before, gets at the heart of something about that. It’s not necessary to be a sufferer of schizophrenia to occasionally feel like someone else or something else inhabits the mind or body.

Also no guarantees that the question of meaning will ever be answered. At least this has been one of my great lessons in life. Sometimes the most glaring answer is the silence. This is your heart/mind: just hold it until it grows steady again.

I appreciate the cycle and unresolution in this. If for no other reason than it helps me to see that these experiences aren’t exactly solitary. In spite of the cave of them.

The revelation of feeling in this is impacting. And the orgasmic death sting wish. Some symbols and ideas are so deeply ingrained in the mind that we need someone else to give them names. I keep going back to that thought we I read the precise nature of that description.

[gram linski]

glad you enjoyed this one, Eilis, thanks for reading, sometimes beneath the chaos and noise there is a subliminal something keeping an eye out, that orgasmic death sting thing, haha,

[Laurel Oak]

So touching.. I like how free you are, you are able to move the language, bend it and just easily write about such disturbing feeling of buzzing wasps in the head.. I spent the whole evening reading your poems, was hungry for the experience of your worlds and yet cannot give a meaningful reviews.

[gram linski]

thanks again for reading and enjoying, if you post some of your writing will return the favour,

[Laurel Oak]

I did. Thank you.

[Neville]

this kind of made me flinch inside my head while knowing I was paralyzed to resist enjoying the next stanza ...... until writ...... supa stuff :)

[gram linski]

Thanks Neville, this is a blast from the past just had a scratchy, itchy noise inside ma head, made sense at the time, don't they all, lol

[Neville]

depends how deep the burrows go... but yeah, quite often.... ;)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I guess it depicts a form of internal 'war and peace' the protagonist struggles with. A pathos laden piece of flowing poetry to make the reader think. Those wasps are the stingers!

[gram linski]

Cheers , dude glad you enjoyed, the buzzing could be the static Akashic feedback of the Universe, but sounds like wasps to me,lol

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I get it the etheric is plane.

[Einstein Noodle]

wow! poignant ...tensile in my head ...full of the buzzing ... maybe madness ... maybe just another bad day ... maybe mental illness ... its the stinging the speaks to me more ... really like the repetition .. the brevity .... and the power of the wasps ... and the format you use with the faces, faces ... powerful and unsettling in a good way says i! glad i stopped ..
E.

[gram linski]

Thanks for the review, E, happy days, someone who reads past page 2, all my best work is on page three, it was a combination of madness, mental illness and bad days,lol

[Einstein Noodle]

:) i like to read the first post when i meet someone here ... sort of ones' beginnings i guess ;)

[Einstein Noodle]

ps. i am an admirer ... you are a survivor .. mental illness per se ... is tragically misunderstood in my opinion ... and much beauty and genius is not seen because of it ... God bless you in your challenges ... all of them whatever they may be ...

[gram linski]

Thanks for your kind words of support, E, apart from a few mental breakdowns many a haunted moon ago, , am as sane as the next man, but you probably don't want to meet my neighbour, lol

[Einstein Noodle]

ok .... i'll take your word for that my friend ;) so glad you have recovered from those dark places and have healed ... lots of us walk around pretending otherwise don't we?! i kind of see our lives on a continuum of sensitivity ... from none to too much ... and we all lay along it somewhere ... blessing on ya my friend!