I lost my happiness through our mindless goodbyes,
the void was filled with pain beyond my capacity.
I tried to live, to thrive,
but the pain overcame me.
The tears followed,
one by one,
staining the paper of your letter.
I read the words again and again:
"It would be better this way. You will be safe."
how can I be truly safe when you, my protector, are gone?
I saw you in a dream,
a nightmare,
You were laughing,
Smiling that same smile I knew so well.
I noticed your hands were clasped with another's,
That made me scream out in pain, shock.
I woke with fear to realize you were gone.
They found my body lying unconscious,
You rushed to my side, to that familiar place.
They pumped my stomach, saved my life.
And in my gentle fist you found a note:
"How can I be safe without my shield?"